3/11/07

Im going to get help.

Im going to talk to a counceller about why i constantly  push people away that i love i was trying to think about it myself today i think it could b for a number of reasons.

1. lack of self confidence- because i dont think im good enought to be loved.

2. being afraid of getting hurt – if i push people away then i wont get hurt. but this dosent work as im hurting so much now as i have puished tim away.

3. stuff that happened when younger – i havent been able to trust men i guess.

Ithink why i need help but if i talk 2 somone i might be able to sort it out how bad i am. Oh well. It also might prove to tim that i want help for what i have done and that i am truly sorry but i have had my second chance already right???