1/13/06

Its all my falt. Just had another huge argument with sion i love him to bits its just the way he treats/ talks to me at times i cant stand. He shouts at me all the time and then turns it around to me being in the wrong. its not a big thing and hes true 98% of itis my falt. i love him but at times like right now i question wether he really loves me or hes with me foron of the following reasons :

He feels sorry for me – i came on to him on day one i told him i loved him first and he just feels sorry for me and is  too nice to say anything.

He wants me for sex i mean its possible thats all thois relationship is based on.

i know he likes other people ie tash so i guess hes with me untill he can find someone else.

im so afraid of losing him but i dontknow if its because i love him sooo much or if im kidding myself that he loves me.

anyway every cloud has a silver lining

talk soon

x