Stuff

Busy: I’ve been soooooo busy this week. I went to the toddler group twice, I walked over to Deidre’s house (50 mins pushing a double buggy!!), I had my midwife appointment, I took the kids to the park twice, and soft play yesterday morning. Last night I was in bed by 9.20pm-I was so tired I felt poorly.

First trimester tiredness: is a bitch. I remember it soooooo clearly from my last pregnancy. When you’re looking after 2 kids under 2, or 3 like I do on Monday and Wednesday, there’s no time to nap, or even rest. I’m always doing stuff, clearing up, tidying, etc, and I walk everywhere. Maidenhead town centre is a 20-25 minute walk from here, down a hill. Walking back up that hill, pushing a double buggy, often laden with shopping, is a killer at the mo. Not sure how I’m going to do that when I’m heavily pregnant.

Materialism: This week I realised I’m the only one of all of my friends that a) doesn’t own a house or b) own at least 1 car. They’ve all decided to buy a house first, do lots of DIY and go for kids in their thirties. Personally, it may not be conventional but I like the way Mike and I are doing things. They’ll be plenty of time to get a lovely house, car, and lots of fancy things in our thirties. I always wanted 2 children before I was 30-and hey, look what happened!

It would be nice to own a car though. But we really can’t afford it right now. And I can’t even bloody drive.

Sick: I seem to spend most of the day feeling queasy. Eating helps, but all I crave is carbs. Crisps, chips, mashed potato. Fish fingers. Pizza. All the really healthy stuff . I’m trying to eat healthily, but an apple doesn’t stop the nausea in the same way that a packet of crisps does!

Midwife: I saw her on Thursday. She worked out my due date as the 9th Sept! I now seem to have about 5 different due dates based on my adjusted cycle length etc-I guess the scan will clear this up. She said that based on the letter from my 6 week check up, there’s no reason why I couldn’t have a normal delivery!!  Fab news. I wish that doctor hadn’t said anything about a c-section-it got me all flustered!

She also took my blood pressure, which is rather low -90/60. And I’m all booked in for my first scan! It’s in 4 weeks. I can’t wait! Once I see the little bean on screen, I’ll be really excited and can start planning…

Stomach: is huge already. I feel FAT.

Secret longing: Time to fess up. I really want a girl. Don’t tell anyone. A boy would be lovely too, of course. Especially as we have so many cool boys’ clothes. But…..doesn’t every girl want a girl? Not just to dress up….it’s the whole mother/daughter relationship. I’m so close to my own mum; always have been. We chat at least once a week, for at least an hour. We planned my wedding together, she was there for all my pregnancy worries and held my hand when I gave birth. I would love to have all that with my own daughter.

But genes dictate it’s highly likely I’ll have another boy-so who knows?! And boys are cool. I’m going to find out at the 20wk scan, so watch this space………..

I feel really, really tired now. William’s napping, and when he wakes up, we’re off to town (that bloody hill again) to do a bit of shopping and go to soft play. All I really want to do is zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Love Clare xxxxxxxxxxxx