I’m too sensitive. Warning: this is silly

This is a very silly entry and I am being too sensitive. Just thought I’d warn you.

I think I have a very independent baby. Which is great, but occasionally I feel a tiny bit (whispers cos it’s silly)………..rejected.

Just now I fed him, then he had bad wind, so I got most of it up through all my usuual methods but he was still crotchety and crying….I put him in his vibrating chair and he is instantly calmed and falls asleep!! Which is great, of course, but why could the chair soothe him and I couldn’t?! Ok, I know I sound like a petulant child. But over the last few weeks, I’ve noticed he rarely wants to just lie in my arms calmly. He wriggles and kicks and grizzles until I either take him for a walk around the house (still in my arms), put him in the sling and carry him around, or put him on his rug, playmat or bouncy chair. It’s like he needs constant stimulation and my face is not enough.

Sometimes he falls asleep on me after a feed, which is lovely. But I’ve realised William is NOT a clingy baby. He likes cuddles (I think….how exactly can you tell at this stage?!) but he loves time by himself, kicking away on his back on his playmat or just sitting in his chair and looking around. I expect people are wondering why on earth I’m complaining-this is a good thing, I know! I guess I’m just feeling like I want something back.  I want to know that he loves me (I realise I’m sounding rather pathetic now). At least women with clingy babies-annoying though I bet they can be- know that their baby needs them. Anyway…..he’s beginning to smile & coo and it’s clear that he recognises me and knows my voice, which is good I guess.

As the title says, I’m too sensitive. After my bright and happy entry yesterday, I developed a killer headache and felt horribly tired and lacking in energy all afternoon. I was in bed by 9pm! I guess all the broken nights caught up with me….was bound to happen sooner or later.

Right! Am going to pull myself together and eat something yummy. Sooner or later I’m going to have to weigh myself and find out how much weight I have to lose, although I REALLY can’t be bothered with dieting at the moment….am having too much fun stuffing myself with Oreos instead!

lots of love, a very sensitive and silly happycookie and my self sufficient little man! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx