WHINING AND COMPLAINING

 i am so upset for two reasons. one i know is stupid but i can't help it. i am trying to knit a little baby sweater and i keep making mistakes. i don't know what is wrong with me. i am so frustrated.  the other reason is because i am afraid of getting older. yesterday…

I just am having a hard time being "happy." I am so frustrated with NOT driving. I know I have so many many things to be grateful for. It doesn't matter!!!!! I can't stand having to wait for hubby to drive me somewhere. It's not that he isn't obliging but it's just not the same.…

I KNOW THAT: I SHOULD TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME! I AM LUCKIER THAN A LOT OF PEOPLE! I SHOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR ALL THAT I HAVE! FOR ME IT'S EASIER SAID THAN DONE. EVERYTHING UPSETS ME! FOR EXAMPLE: WHEN WE CAME HOME ON MONDAY I HAD A MESSAGE ON MY ANSWERING MACHINE.............A NEIGHBOR…

I DO HAVE SO MUCH TO BE GRATEFUL FOR SO WHY CAN'T I BE GRATEFUL? WHY DO I ALWAYS SEE THE CUP AS HALF FULL? WHY CAN'T I JUST RELAX AND BE? WHY DO I ALWAYS COMPLAIN? WHY AM I NEVER HAPPY WITH WHAT I AM DOING? WHY DO I ALWAYS NEED/WANT TO DO MORE?…

GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE; THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE. I couldn't sleep last night. First I was too hot. I don't know why our house stays at 74-75 when we have the air set at 72. I…

I have just realized that the saying 'PEOPLE DO NOT CHANGE" is probably true. I think it is for me anyways. Years ago I took a course at university. We had to write a paper about ourselves. I wrote about how judgmental, critical and prejudiced I was. I still am!!!!!!!! I wrote about how I…

I know there are things I just have to accept but I can't. Don't try to explain things to me. It doesn't matter. I am old! That is no excuse! It's a new world. I don't care. Certain values should always be the same. Tonight I had friends for supper. I usually have eight or…

I am having trouble sleeping at night. During the day I can lie down just about anywhere and fall asleep. Last night I woke up and wandered for hours. The strange thing is I can't be still. I need to keep moving and doing. I don't know why. I just got out of bed. I…

I wonder what will happen to OD. Will it remain here always. So many people love this site. Does the Diary Master intend to keep this site running? I wish he would sell the site or give it over to someone who really cares. I think it is sad that the site is not maintained…

I want to go back to Florida. There is just too much SHIT going on here. Two friends in the hospital. One sick at home. Good things too but pressure anyways. My son's birthday. What do we buy? My cousin isn't feeling well. I have no more energy to give. My friend calling to talk…