The children - L, O, and S

I took a nap a while ago.  Just woke up, but I almost woke up crying.  I had a dream where there was a video of me while I was drunk, and Dick Clark was narrating it, saying some really ugly stuff about me.  He talked about my weight and other things.  It m...

Wayne is mean and hateful.  I didn't do anything to him tonight, but he got mean about me anyway.  I wish I was dead. Mama called him and told him we were short two papers.  He said, "Oh well!"  Piers said, "Well, I guess it's not HIS problem&quot...

I don't know how much I've updated on the whole automobile situation on here.  Between Facebook and IMs and talking to people in person, I forget what I post and what I say directly to others sometimes.   Here's the deal: My mother is looking into buying us a 1997 Fo...

And I hope she eventually reads this entry, too.  I'm tired tired TIRED of pussyfooting around her!  All she has to do is turn on the fucking waterworks, and we give in and tell her it's not really her fault for whatever is going on.  Well, this time it IS her fault! It w...

It would be my grandparents' 71st anniversary, had Papaw not died at their 61st year.  I'm upset and depressed.  My cousin Lance just posted a very sarcastic response on Facebook about my wanting to adopt the girls.  He said, "Woo hoo.  Tax write-offs!" The only one ...

Today will be a day I will never forget!  I found out today that I have the capability to adopt my girls and make them legally MY DAUGHTERS!!!!!! YAY! Great news! Love,   Oscar, surprisingly  

I just can't seem to stay happy lately.  If I GET happy, something stupid robs me of the joy of the moment.  Right now, I'm incredibly irritated with my wife.  This morning, she took some Klonopin, though I don't know why.  I'm thinking of flushing that shit down the...

Listening to Cass Elliot singing a pretty song called "Ain't Nobody Else Like You" over and over again.  Her voice sounds like Mama Betty's voice.  It can stop my panic attacks.  Found that out the other day. We're not smoking as much again.  Chantix is kicking in, a...

Mama and I had to rescue somebody I knew very well.  Maybe my daughter, not sure.  Mama looked a little older than she does now, but she was 98 years old, instead of 56.  I thought I was 34, at first.  We tried to rescue this woman, but she pretty much rescued hersel...

I'm scared, and I don't know why.  Just woke up.  It's 4:30 something in the morning.  Listened to Cass Elliot, because she makes me feel better.  Ate the last of the cheese with a glass of milk.  Now, I should go back to bed.  Don't know if I will. L