It looked pretty. I needed it.

Shh, please don't get weird, but I think I'm lonely.

C'mon, grunt, you fucking asshole. Show us all how very manly you are.(I hope I stop playa hating, someday.)To melodramaticize a quote: I don't have to go home, but I can't stay here.Anger: I hope someday he feels how much I could cry, do you know what I mean?Me: I wish I weren't so spiteful.&hel...

I talked to Jenn tonight very angry at her for really no reason yelling and cussing and suddenly it just came out---I'm still angry about her taking advantage of me. Very, very upset, and hurt.I just kept bringing up how fucked up it was, that she do that and make me feel bad about it…

I'm in Europe. I'm in Berlin.€ Whoa. Their keyboards are weird. The z's are where the y's should be, if it matters to you.Watch: Hez! Are zou going to the yoo todaz_ (Where the hell is the question mark_) Oh? There. There it is.(I said are you going to the zoo today.)Well. ÄÖܵwhat_-(Damn!)-?I'm ...

In a few hours I leave for Europe.I had a few semi-emotional goodbye's and had some really good music playing during them and.It would have been better had I (could I have) written this in the car on the ride home but that's just not possible.Two weeks.

My friends make me sad. Well I'll be alone anyway.It'll probably be good.Please rain.(I think, overhearing someone else's conversation in The Admiral's Club (All Day Long), I miss small talk.)I'll shutup now. I am such little kid. I Am 20.God's sake.

So I sulked for about 10 minutes and then I realized it’s just history.Why should I be angry over something I can’t control. If I get back from Europe and the job isn’t waiting for me, I’ll find something else. I’ll move out some other way, I’ll get money another way.I guess that’s it. I…

In the first grade I was made fun of for always having a slight smile on.At some point I started stopping myself whenever I caught myself.That was when I started public school. That's when I first remember feeling sad.(I am typing on a very comfortable keyboard. It boggles the fingers.)I don't ha...

I'm at a Cico de Mayo/Birthday party right now and I just brought up tubgirl.com and people looked at it.Drunk people: "Oh my. God."I drank a little rum, I think, and I honestly just wasn't thirsty enough to drink more than one cup.But that's cool. I got a little buzz. I guess.Why am I writing.

I hate when, and I mean I've done this, friends leave.I am literally so sad over you.The song feels more natural with you gone, anyway."Hey there Mr. Blue, we're so pleased to be with you. Look around, see what you do?Every Body Smiles At You."