High School, Junior Year

i'm just a scaredselfishlazylittle girl who wants nothing more than to curl up into a ball, fall asleep, and never wake up.mr. sandman won't come.he's too busy tending to those that fill their days with good things and happy thoughts and comforting words.i don't deserve his magic dust. fuck that....

It wasn't an unpleasant day, in retrospect. I ate a lot, which, of course, bugged me, but other than that, I was happy. Why?-I got to hang out with some cool senior clarinets. :)-D called, "Seniors, over here!" for the first time...hearing that and then standing with my group of people was awesom...

I don't really feel like writing about the weekend right now. It was amazing and relaxing and fun and crazy, all at the same time. I still feel as though I'm on the water *closes eyes* Yup, still feeling the waves.But...no. Not now. I won't soon forget those emotions. It's late and I'm tired and&...

On Wednesday, we're meeting at Perkins at 10:30 for our usual brunch thingy.Actually, this will only be the second year we've done that, right? Because we couldn't have gone soph year (no cars). Strange. Seems like we've done it a lot. Well, we DO spend a lot of time there anyway. But two years d...

Katy rocks. :) She got me something from New York. I just think that you should all know how cool my brother's girlfriend is.

Today was a hard day for me.The usual morning, marching practice. Good lord, these frosh can't march. Well, the one girl standing next to me could, and I noticed in the sax section that Erin could (dude, she's getting all these kudos, how cool :) ), but other than that...so crazy. D had us do&hel...

Well, I have Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday left before school starts.Saturday and Sunday I'm gone. No time to read at all.Monday, I have between 11:30 and 5. Sure, I COULD get up at 8 or so and get a bit in before band at 10, but the chances of that happening are...slim to none.And…

Why do people see suicide as selfish?I don't want to hear all the reasons you may think it is. Because as much sense as they can make now, when you're standing with the gun to your head, the knife to your arm, the pills to your mouth, when you're standing on the roof, ready to…

we painted a pretty picture tonight, didn't we? truth and beauty and a little bit of insanity thrown in, just for kicks. happiness was the end result.i don't know why things can't always be this way. but if i had my way, i'd put part of tonight in all of my days. head back, eyes…

Well, actually, I haven't. Today was quite a good day. Care to hear more about it? Read on...After registration, Lindsay, Alex, and I went to Wedge. It was the most unlikely trio. Never the kind that would be planned. I don't think the situation would ever arise where I would call those two up an...