Happiness

 My first entry as an OD plus member, exciting huh? Yeah I don't really think so either. I am still not quite sure why I upgraded..I guess I feel like I owe this site something for letting me pour the last 7 years of my life out here. Plus having my entries safe from another…

This is the 3rd time I have tried to write this entry. I guess no one will know if I don't finish it though. I get as far as one sentence and then I just lose all motivation to write.  Ok, well I have passed the first sentence wall..so hopefully this entry will stick. It's…

 It took me awhile, but I am starting to really love Florence + the machines.  Well I think I am back in the MN swing of things. It is weird how long it takes you to adjust to being on vacation, but once I as back it was like I never left.  Things in general…

 Well, I am back in MN. I decided it was a good idea to just leave for st.cloud right away from getting picked up from the airport..yeah I flew in at 5:30am and I drove like I was drunk. Probably should have slept a little first..oh well. So yeah I made it 39 hours with…

 Less than a week left in Maui.  This time here has felt way different that any other. I thought last year would be way hard..but this time is proving to be harder. I started crying at the airport while my mom got the car. It just isn't the same without my dad.. I think last…

 I still am going to get weird about it sometimes I think i mean..I just don't do that. I would think to myself while writing it 'this could look bad if someone else were to see it'  That is just how I am.  I mean, it's fine.  I have been having stupid dreams and I…

 1 week from now, I will be on the plane to Maui.  I have been having a really..nostalgic? week. I have just been sad. I have been missing my dad like crazy. I have been having a lot of dream/nightmares about it..I am assuming because it is getting to close to Maui time-I can't think&he...

I think I am due for an update.  I am finally over my sickness 100%, so that is pretty amazing.  Yup, that was my start off. I have been doing a lot of...a lot of..thinking...but not thinking..contemplating? Something like that.  I was pretty sad last week.. So I guess I should sta...

 I hate the little 'moods' I get it.  I hate that I sometimes tend to build things up in my head.  Does everyone do that from time to time? Ugh I was so sick today, and I just started to feel sorry for myself to the point where I was almost determined to be in…

I hate having to make important decisions way in advance. On feb 3rd I have to pretty much decide what I want my living situation to be for next year. I mean...so much can change between now and then. I just hate having to try and feel my way around for things that have yet…