Family

A quick note to announce the birth of my second daughter, who came rather unexpectedly on the 7th of June. Saskia was a month premature, unlike her sister Alexa who was almost a month overdue. My water broke at about 4am in the morning and I raced off to hospital to have another em...

A quick note to announce the birth of my second daughter, who came rather unexpectedly on the 7th of June. Saskia was a month premature, unlike her sister Alexa who was almost a month overdue. My water broke at about 4am in the morning and I raced off to hospital to have another em...

I wrote these entries on 12 March 2002 about looking back on the days that followed my brother’s death. Please read them in day order...     It was the morning after. I had sat up all night with my mother and watched the sun rise in near silence. I could palpably hear the tears&he...

I wrote these entries on 12 March 2002 about looking back on the days that followed my brother’s death. Please read them in day order...       When someone dies suddenly, without warning, you are left with a sense of disbelief. Every time someone coughed, walked down the gard...

I wrote these entries on 12 March 2002 about looking back on the days that followed my brother’s death. Please read them in day order...       I was not allowed to read his eulogy, I was too emotional. I was bundled up in the hearse.   I fought with my dad about him…

I wrote this entry today about looking back on my brother’s life. Please read them in day order...       I thought about a guy I met at my brother’s funeral called Jim. As a boy, Jim had been in my class at primary school. I had never spoken to him. I remember seeing&he...

I wrote these entries on 12 March 2002 about looking back on the days that followed my brother’s death. Please read them in day order... I made my way to the hospital with my father who I hadn’t spoken to forever. I had been told I would be met there by a social worker and…

I wrote this entry five years ago in my previous diary on this site...       I was in a cab this evening & mind turned to Marty. I normally think about him everyday but today it was with sadness. Dec 14 is approaching & that is the anniversary of his death in 1993.…

Our brothers and sisters are there with us from the dawn of our personal stories to the inevitable dusk.    Susan Scarf Merrell I wrote about my brother's death in my old diary many times and how my grieving for him has changed my life. After having so many "poor me" entr...