Everyday stuff

Tonight - crabbing with the kids, trying for bait and maybe wet a line. Eventually peeling crab meat Tomorrow - car registration - writing and lots of it (roleplay bdsm related, and an extra entry) - Take Ella to the bait and tackle shop for her new pole.   That's it for now....

This has been a busy work week so far. I have a lot to do especially with the vacation kicking off on Monday. I will be away from work for 2 weeks. I think my office is scared actually but I guess they will have to deal with it.   I am burned out. Heart…

I have been recluse from here for some time. Work has devoured me whole between shop work, proposals, problems and triumphs.  My waking hours burn away as the pillar of fire which is my trade of work took me like a slave. Home life has no bright points, like a dark star with its own…

Night beyond is pierced by the generator vanguard of gas birthed light. Hundreds of tents surround me and at 11:25 a.m. you are all I can think about. I see your picture and those eyes. I close my own and we are there in Vegas, stealing time. Meeting for the first time, saying hello for…

Middle of the week has come up, Friday starts spring break for the kids and luckily no shop time Saturday. Tomorrow I'll be locked into site meetings until at least noon. Otherwise just trying to stay on top of things. Hope I can make a big dent on my garden work. Need to get it…

This has been a crappy month already. My aunt is dying of a rare leukemia that only children are supposed to get and the doctors are only giving her a month to live. My mom had a surgery of on her veins in her leg and she had an aneurysm and nearly died. Work is…

Sunday night is quiet and the kids are in bed. Ella's asleep and Joey's reading; he never sleeps on Sunday night right away.  Misses his mother since tonight is her late shift. I started writing again, first time in such a long time. I worried if my fingers still remembered the words and if they&...

I am away this weekend with my wife and kids. We'll be doing some tubing and hopefully Nina and Ella will do some skiing or snowboarding. Driving up with her is hell. She frets over everything is edgy so I try to sleep most times. They're in the pool after we lost our chance to…

It is windy and wet. The weather is strummed with howling wind and the frenetic cadence of my windchime outside as the wind spasms in its speed. It is lonely here. My wife works sometimes until midnight on Sunday. I've been to  the gym 3 times this week. Working on myself, trying to find myself&h...

I've been feeling completely worn out and depressed in this last year. So much so that I went to an endocrinologist to get checked out. After a battery of blood tests it turns out that I'm suffering from low testosterone. I was kind of shocked because my desire and drive hasn't  exactly decreased...