Depression/Thoughtful Entries

It's weird to know that. I'm in the month free trial, before this turns to a paid-only site, which I might not bother with, completely honestly. I haven't written anything of merit online in a long time. Just some basic facts -- I got a black headed caique in March of 2012, after my second…

Florida Flower recommended I let myself break, and only then could I put the pieces back together correctly.  I completely agree, to a point.  I'm not going to let myself break.  If nothing else, I've proven to myself time and again that I'm too strong to let myself succumb to that...

I remember when I could come on this diary and write whatever I was feeling, whatever way I wanted.  Cryptically, or laying it all out there for everyone to either tend or throw salt on my wounds.  And believe me, I've had people expertly or novice-ly do both.  I've had people comm...

I'm done.  There's too much to go into and frankly I feel no need to divulge a portion of my soul to mostly faceless strangers when even the people who are supposed to be my friends will betray and lie and break promises to me so easily. Yes, I'm hurt.  Yes, I'm shutting down.  I'v...

I suppose nobody wants to note me because I've updated so rarely recently.  ::Shrugs::  It doesn't matter, I guess. I'm finding out that's true about a lot of things concerning me.  I mean, Dolly tells me last night that a friend of hers in Texas is in the hospital due to complicat...

I got a student I.D. yesterday so I can go on the Brookdale website and get psych journal things to use for references, because apparently the books I got aren't good enough for the paper I'm writing.  Grrrrr . . . . It frustrates me. I called out of work yesterday.  To be honest, I&hel...

Yeah.  And apparently, nobody loves me enough to leave me notes if I don't write something new!  ::Mock-glares at all diary people in cyberspace:: Oh, well.  Thank God, last night I found my MIA (missing in action) journals.  ::Wipes forehead::  Whew!  I was so ...

This week coming up is gonna be tough.  On the fourth and the sixth, I have appointments with two different counselors.  (My mom wanted me to find another one and basically compare.  I admit, the one she found is cheaper, but Ryan recommended the first one I called and she seems re...

Odd that Mike and I were collaborating on a story with this name . . . Yeah, I wasn't doing too great today with things concerning him.  And I really have to buy a printer soon.  I'm gonna be writing papers and stuf for classes and I also wanna be able to print out my…

Thanks in large part to Ryan and being able to talk to him, I finally came to grips with everything concerning Mike and the rest of that group a few weeks ago.  Maybe a bit more than a month, I'm not sure.  But now . . . Something else has cropped up.  Whereas before I…