Daily Thunder Bay Living

     Well, it's been an awfully long time since I last wrote...I didn't end up being pregnant for those of you that read that one entry... I'm finally laid off work, so I got to see my family in southern ontario for the first time in a year! I also visited ...

One by one, each like the other not one supportive ear to a brother thinking the world is all the same wishing it was all just a game never feeling truly loved wondering how some fit in like a glove confused and misunderstood in people not seeing any good in men there could be found…

     Well, those of you who read my entry yesterday know how I felt. Now someone fucking explain to me why today I feel the complete opposite!!   Today I feel tired of Rob and when I think of him, there isn't fondness, more the feeling of too much indulgence - the feeling...

     I feel like I want to go out, have a good time and feel loved. That's the way I have always felt before...I think that's what going out was like for me. I wanted to go out and be this person that everyone loved.   But I feel like that's not a realistic way…

     I feel like a bag of shit!! I feel like I can't do anything right...I can't even fucking hold onto happiness when everything around me is just fine!! I always say the wrong thing and just fuck everything up. I can't keep control of my emotions, and even when I try to be e...

     You can't know that the person you are with is "the one". You just can't. No one has life figured out. You can't plan life. As much as you want to, and you want to have everything follow in order, plans A-Z. But if you find love, someone who will be there for yo...

     Lately it's been too depressing to dwell on anything for so long as to write it all down, so I'll just write a brief description and maybe you folks will understand...   After the truck accident and not being able to see our families, I decided that I couldn't take i...

3 days before my trip with my b/f to Ottawa and Toronto, despite having the truck tuned up 3 weeks prior, a recent discovery is made that the truck needs some new transmission fluid and there is problems with downshifting...(something like that) So...my b/f blows $500 on his new truck...on his wa...

     Ok, so I'm sitting here, procrastinating. I have lots to do. But I'm sitting here looking at old facebook pictures, and reflecting. I'm wondering if maybe I really was happy when I was in college. I know that after my breakup with STeve, I had to do something to make myse...

     Well, Rob got into an accident. He had just gotten the truck fixed up for the trip, we were already delayed by 3 days and he was on his way back to my house from Midas. He was two freakin' blocks away, when some guy decided at the last minute to make a left…