College, Sophomore Year

Basics Your gender:: Not packing heatStraight/Gay/Bi:: StraightSingle?: Um, kinda sorta, I dunno...???If not, do you want to be?: -Birthdate:: May 24th, 1984Your age:: 20Age you act:: 24-ishAge you wish you were:: 21Your height:: 5'4"Eye color:: BlueHappy with it?: Very much soHair color:: Light ...

~This song is so heartwrenchingly beautiful - it brings back every feeling I have ever had about wanting to have a country life.~ She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigaretteShe broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forgetWe watched him drink his pain away a little at&...

These waves are so suffocating - they rip me from any form of happiness or even mild contentment and fling me to the ground, screaming, "You are a horrible, horrible person and you deserve nothing from this world."  And then the waters settle and I am floating again, bobbing and gasping for ...

I'm on more medication (surprise, surprise) and I have an appointment with my psychologist on Monday (in case anyone wondered, I saw my psychiatrist today, a different doctor).  I was also put in touch with a woman at Mercy who runs the intentsive therapy day program.  I will wait until...

Today was a really odd jumble of stuff. I spent a nauseated hour and a half squished between Luke and Ethan on the way up to Waupun, bummed a Crunch bar from E, petted Emma (and later got a wet doggy kiss on the lips from her), then spent another hour or so quietly staking…

The waves of temptation are strong tonightand they flow with the pull of the tide.It causes her to ache,pained that she cannot move like that. It is the passage of the glass crystalsfrom the leaden sky to the quagmire belowthat hides her broken faceand stains her hands with despair. The frothy wh...

I just broke up with Mark (just as in 45 minutes ago).  11 months yesterday and now we're done.  For the summer, at least, but summer is long and I don't know what the coming weeks bring. Just living it now. No emotion - bawling but blank. And just living.

I have a love/hate relationship with my therapist.  I love her because she makes me feel better and doesn't make me talk if I don't want to.  I hate her because she's a therapist - and I don't like the idea of having to pay someone to make me feel better (hmmm, and WHO wanted…

Fuck you for having no balls and just avoiding this whole problem.  Fuck you for being immature. Fuck you for hurting me with your words and putting me in this whole awkward situation. Just a big fuck you - and you'll never read this, but that's probably just as well.  Or maybe not - I&...

I'm getting really frustrated with life right now - so many hours with so many questions and no way to answer them.  There are people that want to try, but I can't let anyone in right now.  I don't want to be here, don't want to be alive, but I will stay for them. It's…