Chapter 6 : Oil Above Water

So… Mundy and I are ~kind of~ back together. I told her I’m back in therapy. I didn’t tell her why. I will have to explain the leg in time no doubt. Off to a cracking start again then…thigh slashed up like Freddie Kreuger’s been let loose and only able to open up to Rita,…

So… Sometimes you need to take a long hard look at yourself, but it’s not always your true reflection that stares back at you. I so rarely see myself when I look in the mirror that I often wonder if the dysmorphia stemmed the mental health issues, or did the mental health issues create the…

So… I think it’s actually working. Either that or I’m so ill with this respiratory infection that I’ve become delirious. I’ve decided to let go of the idea that I’ll ever be the person I was again. I’ve packed her up and filed her away. Until I let go of her, and the past, I…

So… I think it’s actually working. Either that or I’m so ill with this respiratory infection that I’ve become delirious. I’ve decided to let go of the idea that I’ll ever be the person I was again. I’ve packed her up and filed her away. Until I let go of her, and the past, I…

So....   I started writing this before I went for my appointment, but things have changed so I scrubbed it and I’m starting again. Today was the day. Today I went back into therapy. Clinical Hypnotherapy & NLP to be precise. I won’t lie, I was an absolute mess this morning when I got up,...

“Crystal heart in the graveyard, I think it’s time for a new start...” Kailee Morgue (Unfortunate Soul)   So...   I didn’t go for coffee with Straight Girl. Instead I had a chat with Pip about what’s going on and how I’m struggling with the inside of my own head, and then I went and sat...

  “Say what you want to say, let the words fall out, honestly, I want to see you be brave...” - Sara Barellies (Brave) So it would seem nightmares do come true after all. He’s been deployed recently. So I get to spend this year desperately hoping that he only lands here to put his…

"....sitting on the ground, and we whisper..." - The Starting Line (The Best of Me)    So... What the actual fuck am I doing?? Why the fuck am I thinking that getting involved with Straight Girl is anything even remotely close to a good idea?? It's very obviously not but pop that self destru...

So... I can’t sleep. I’m lay here wide awake with the urge racing through my veins. Maybe my trip to Rock Bottom wasn’t a day trip, maybe I need to kick about down here for a little while but without collecting souvenirs. I’m completely med-free at the moment. I start the new meds on Tuesday…

So...   I had to last minute ditch my Valentine plans with Straight Girl, and I’d do it again.  Pidge took not well with Croup...AGAIN  and so we had to do an emergency dash to A&E as her sats were sat at 82%. A little Oxygen and a big ol’ dose of steroids and she’s…