change and growth (2007)

I tried to keep myself busy so far this weekend. I got done most of the things that were on my list, went shopping with Rebecca and my mum, play Super Smash Brothers with Alli, Eric and David... all the while feeling this tugging in my chest. Every time I would look out the window,…

I don't mean to freak anyone out by this entry.... this is probably going to sound very depressing and emotional and sad... I warn everyone in advance... read this with caution. * * * * * * I went for a long walk tonight. I walked about 2 miles.... maybe more. It reminded me of…

I am taking some time for myself this weekend. I have a list of things to get done.... and a lot of internal mulling to do. I am trying to get some stuff done for me... and I know that one weekend isn't enough time to figure out even a millionth of what I need…

Hmmm... so I went to health and wellness today. Today was "wear comfy clothes because you are getting your body fat measured" day. HA! So I go to class in my bagging terry cloth pants and my star tank. When I go up to the professor he says my name and then says Laura with…

You see that graphic in my top right corner? That is the adorable graphic that Rob left me in a comment on my myspace. I love that man so much! He is such a sweetheart... my hopeless romantic who I love with all my heart. October is here and moving. Rob called me yesterday while…

Rob called me on Saturday! It was so nice to hear his voice... it had been so long. Ugh do I ever miss him. It was a good conversation. We talked about what I have been doing and how school has been going. We talked about how much he wants to come home and that…

There is something wrong with my laptop so I don't know when I will be able to post next. Every time I try to post an entry on OD my internet explorer crashes. I don't know what the hell is wrong with my laptop or when I will be able to get it fixed.... hopefully…

Wow its been forever since I have posted anything. OD was done for over a week and the few times it did work it wouldn't post my entries. I hope that the problem is fixed and I read that it was even though it is still not working half the time for me. So lets…

Well things haven't really changed all that much.... but they have gotten better. My last entry was pretty bad... I went back and read it. Its odd... reading about your own sadness, but I'm glad that I wrote about it. Rob's note to that entry just made me feel so much better.... I mean so…

I know that I write this a lot. I know that many of my entries end up this way... me sad, depressed, lonely... sometimes I just can't help but feel this way. Of course my present surroundings right now are not helping me at all. ..... sitting in the dark in my room, one candle…