Before we knew.....

Oh, the sweet voice. The sweet sleepiness in some of the voicemails. I am in some pretty severe Mikey Withdrawals, and I'm listening to voicemails from him. His voice so soothes me. Last night, I upset him by getting insecure about the way I look again. He doesn't love himself, either, yet. I lov...

My Key   My key to happiness was handed to me My key to a life richly blessed as can be   My key to unlock the future My key to lock up past pain My key to know the true me My key to be free again   My key to spread the joy inside…

Last Person Who... 1. Called You: Lola from Stacy's house, asking about whether I ate all the damn hotdogs, which I didn't. 2. Slept In Your Bed: Me. 3. Saw You Cry: Probably Lola 4. Made You Cry: Me. 5. Spent The Night At Your House: I can't remember the last time anyone did 6.…

Nobody else reading will know what this is about, which is just the way it should be.... You asked me not to call that number, so NO MATTER HOW MAD I GET SOMETIMES I won't call it - EVER Unless you ask/tell me to, baby. I love you. I want to keep you happy, and…

Our Darling Charlie,   I was just reading back over previous entries in this diary, and something hit me rather hard. There was a time when you were ready to integrate back into Peter.  Do you remember that?  You "disappeared" for a matter of months.  Charlie, I'm so sorry.&nb...

Mikey is on my mind.... As if that is something new, hehe! We both just woke from our naps. In spite of stressors from the outside, we both seem to be coping pretty well. I love him so very much. Earlier, I said something to him about the times when he tries to reach me…

At 2:59, Mikey and I hung up from our niters talk. I kissed my baby all around his beautiful face and we said "I love you" and he went to sleep. I feel so blessed. What have I done to entitle me to have this wonderful, beautiful family? It is so good when God smiles…

MikeyThe first thoughts in the morning are always for you, my love. As I reflect on our reading time last night, I feel like giggling. You are so charming and witty so much of the time, baby. I was reminded of a quote about Bette Davis, "She criticized the dialogue EVEN AS SHE SPOKE IT!!!".…

fighting off a panic hard as i can. mikey hasn't called and i just woke from bad dreams feeling like he needs me, but i can't get to him now. phone ringers off. mikey, i love you, baby. i've got you. you're in my strong, safe arms.Peter Henry Campbell Forstmann is my husband, he loves…

I sit here, praying for the overdue money to come in and let me bring my baby home, where we belong. I will not panic, even if dinner takes two hours. OR, if I DO panic, I will not yell when Mikey gets to me again. Yelling is bad for us. I know he loves…