Away

Today, I had the last day of my job.  There was cake.  I cried on the way out.  I tried hard not to resent my sister but failed.  Oh, did I fail. So I came home and had some tequila and cake and sublimated my feelings.  Even though “emotions happen” and it&rsq...

I spent 10,000 days waiting  for wings to spring from my back, to transcend to something better, to find the “something” that I lack. But I am not an angel, no, and I am not a man. I am just a fuck up in a really fucked up land. In 10,000 days I could have…

 I wish I knew how to say “no.”  Or to stand up for myself.  Unfortunately, I can’t do either.  Since I am not “selfish,” I will not do anything that’s in my own best interest.  Because doing things for yourself, that you want to do, is...

 Tomorrow is my second-to-last day of work.  Saturday is my last day.  I have been thinking about it, and getting angry again.  I am trying not to, because there’s really no point in expending the energy to be mad, and if there’s no recourse, what’s the point...

 but I'm not.     And another:       I arranged this next one when I was 11th grade. I tweaked it a bit.   warning: this is loud and could possibly cause a seizure. not kidding about the seizure.

I hate reading the things that people write on bathroom stall walls.  I mean, the vulgar stuff is okay.  "Your mom has a saggy vagina" or "buttsex is fun" or "cunty cunty pussy twatface" is fine.  But when people try to be philosophical and give advice...

Christmas is coming; the goose is getting fat.  Please put a penny in an old man’s hat.  If you haven’t got a penny, a half-penny will do.  If you haven’t got a half-penny, God bless you. One of the hazards of playing piano is that you learn the lyrics to a lot of...

I refused to believe for many, many years that this doll was not "alive."   As I'm typing, she is about 5 feet away, resting on my window sill since I moved all of my furniture.  Sometimes I still sleep with her in my bed.  I am not sure why this ratty old doll means…

 I tried to be productive today and I mostly failed.  So it’s almost midnight and I’m studying vertebrate anatomy because I was feeling guilty about getting so little done.  But I’m really tired and so the vertebrate anatomy is not holding my attention like I&rsqu...

This beach is about 15 miles from my new house.  My new house is right across the street from the same beach, but the rocks mostly give way to sand out there. This is the road leading away from my house.  As you can see, the only car in the vicinity is one that was…