2008

Christmas.  Easter.  Good Friday.  Thanksgiving.  Times of relaxation, vacations from school, work and the stresses of life.  Not for those who work behind the scenes at churches!  Pastors have it rough, but really all their work takes place before the holiday comes....

I screwed up.  Royally.  And I know I have absolutely no one to blame but myself.  I've taken certain steps to fix it, but I really don't know if its going to work out. I failed my classes.  I worked hard at one of them, but blatantly gave up on two of them.  And at…

She wears me down.  There is so much I don't tell her, don't want her to be a part of anymore.  I just don't trust her.  I don't want to hear it from her.  But I can't tell her to shove off.  She needs me, and I just can't be that much of a bitch. …

So yesterday's entry has provoked quiet a lot of thinking.  I think I'm a pretty open-minded person.  I'm generally willing to try new things, give new concepts and ideas a chance - the same goes for new people.  I believe what I believe, but recognize that not everyone holds my be...

What can I say? I'll never know what happened today I'd written a song to string her along I knew it was wrong She told me we would last forever That all she'd ever had was me I've just said goodbye Based on a lie that I told to my sweet love But if all…

People often name their cars.  This is not particularly unusual.  My car has a name - Charlotte.  What other inanimate objects do we name?  Teddy bears, and stuffed animals.  The majority of mine have names.  None of that is too unusual, right? In the musician's...

I've been thinking back on some of my favorite couples - from movies, TV, literature, plays, you name it.  Why were they favorites of mine? There is a balance.  Their intellects are matched, but different.  Their strengths and weaknesses are not identical, but neither are they exac...

I don't want to write online, so I'm writing tonight.  I'll post this sometime tomorrow. I'm anxious, and excited and nervous and.... Nothing.  I'm suppose to feel all those emotions, but I feel nothing.  There's a pain in my left hip.  But thats not an emotion.  Thats a ...

So on Sunday, I had time after the service to clean out the choir folders, put old anthems away and get out new anthems.  I like to have the music ready for our rehearsals, especially now that I'm way more prepared for the services.  After the service, one of the members and her daughte...

So I've missed a few days.  Unfortunately I've turned rather apathetic to the whole NoJoMo thing lately.  Actually towards everything really.  Thanksgiving is less than two weeks away and I really could care less. This is what's scary about being bipolar.  I lose sight of my f...