2007 - The Mess, The Madness

  So a new year wants to dawn, does it? Well alrighty then! Dawn away! This OD has seen a strange year. I left it, I came back, and I left again. Now it's still here but in a strange way. It's like the taboo hush hush diary or something. I have no idea. Lots…

  Hmmm, what to say, what to say. Ummm. It's Friday! I get off an hour early! I have absolutely  no money! Well i do, but it's supposed to be savings. I guess it's not anymore. ha ha! What else. Ummm, I got nothin. I'mgonna put my hair in braids probably next weekend. My kids…

  ahhhh, the black feels better. carry on. i'm fucking up at work today. perhaps i should get off OD? hahahah

  Ok, so that ends the chapter of lament. I am going to move along now. oh whatever shall i do? fuck if i know. i just know sitting here feeling like death only makes lunchtime seem farther away. har har.

  dude, my colors made me wanna scream. these make me wanna sleep and eat candy. yeah. candy. i have a bag full of candy at home which i haven't touched. it's a miracle really. i leave work in 2 minutes. what the fuck am i doing? getting paid to slack, that's what.   don't…

  to totally be pointless, i just found out Hot coworker is only 32. that's so thexy. he's delicious. he totally talked to my kids today and it was so cute. i wish it was enough of a distraction. but really, it's not. i wanna scream. oh merry christmas. wooty woo and all that jazz.

  the office is really loud today. i don't know if it's because we haven't talked and i know we won't and i'm just sensitive to all the sounds... or if it's just because... everyone is a big mouth and needs to shut the fuck up.   hmmmm

  Last night I laid awake for awhile staring at wierd light patterns on my wall. From the window. I heard wind whistling. I should have gotten up to close it completely, but I didn't. I'm... sad inside. I don't want to be. I want to be calm. Or happy. I'd even settle for silly.…

  i'm not worried about it anymore.

  I want some more problems. Like, seriously, I'm so tired of the ones I have. and since it seems like my life can't be bothered to exist without some sort of issues going on, I would like to draw a new hand. the universe can have all of the stupid going on in my…