2005/2006

well, the dog is outside so i can eat without anyone staring at me. we've just come back from uptown. we picked up my new book at the post office.  i love books--new, old. i tend to decorate with them. is that weird? i just like to look at them. the dog took a shit…

will thursday never come?  i feel so unbalanced, so uncertain.  argh. i'm moody today. my older cat is too.  she keeps hissing at my younger cat. well, i didn't do anything interesting last night and you know how my weekend went, so... until tomorrow... ***  

friday:  i already updated friday in my last entry saturday: we went to nephew's birthday party for supper and to watch him open presents. as soon as i sat down with my plate of food, i started feeling really hot and i didn't want to eat. i did my best, eating really really slowly....

i'm not usually on OD on the weekends but d is at work this morning and i needed to ask him something, so i came on to e-mail him. i'm finally reading again.  it's been a while since i devoured a book and i could feel my brain rotting. i've been reading Portrait of a Lady...

well, today i feel okay.  it's weird to WANT to feel yucky. i've never gone through THAT before. we'll be having our usual friday night movie date tonight. we'll just rent movies and stay home.  aren't we cute?  it looks like it might be warming up outside so walking uptown to pick...

i feel so helpless. i just want to know what's going on in my body! am i sick? am i imagining it? am i about to get my period?  am i pregnant? i want to know. but...i want it to be only one thing.  how will i deal with the disappointment if it's not pregnancy? …

okay, so, i was VERY sick yesterday. i didn't puke but i was shopping with my mom and i could barely do it.  i had to sit down and i just felt nauseous (still had the poops [sorry] too).  so, i'm worried that it's dairy products that are doing it to me and that i'm getting…

here is how i've been feeling: -nauseous--i thought i was going to throw up in the car today on the way to the chiropractor. i had to make my husband close the windows b/c i had that feeling where you swallow a lot to try to stop yourself from throwing up--just b/c of the dust!…

last night when we were visiting, i told my friend, c.f., that we were ttc and she got all excited and started clapping. she told me i need to have a girl b/c she has a boy and my other friend has twin boys so we need a girl in the group.  i don't think…

here is what i have given up b/c we want this baby so badly.  i think you will see why i am impatient to be pregnant now instead of later. 1.  i quit smoking 2.  i stopped taking my Ditropan XL--these pills are for overactive bladder. imagine being pregnant with an overactive bladd...