2002-2004~ Lost In Madness

So the title says it, I"m not baking any buns in my oven. Though, I did miss out on the dinner rolls on thanksgiving and that is sort of an ironic twist to my life... ISN'T IT. to be quite honest, i was sad at first, cuz it was like, my one chance to have…

Well, Lets see heah. hi. I have to be stella and get my groove back. I don't even know how to start an entry anymore. please, oh wise ones of diaryness, blesseth me with thou holy art once more. Or whatever. So, like i said, living with mom. I'm a spoiled brat cuz my dad…

So, I live with my mom now. It's small here, with no privacy. My "Husband" sucks ass, and I just don't want to be married anymore. And. Yeah. so I might write tomorrow, i was just online getting a map and I knew I had to come by. pooh. on a stick. with freckles. not…

I can't talk right now, and that sorta sucks. Oh well. Hrm. so. yeah. what to talk about. I thought I had something to say. and I sorta did do, but i don't not. har har. it's just the same ole same ole "my husband makes me cry" shit. I don't really have a husband.…

i really am sick. in my last entry i said i had to go change my sons DIARY. ummmm, i meant diaper. i need meds.

I love the band "The Used" now. *sigh* I hate when bands can carve out my insides and shatter every memory across the floor like a damn catastrophe. And yet I love it and need and crave it..... Anyway, I figure it won't help much for me to try and write about all the krap…

Yes.... I renewed (for a year! *gasp oh gaspy*)... though I seem to have ads at the top of my goddamn page. hm. OH well. I've been thinking about trying to get back into the groove of writing (haven't we heard THIS before.... shut up evil voice!!!!) But... I think I will. should. can. hrm.…

Ugh, I go away for a million days and look what happens. *sigh* I should back up my diary NOW. but I'm too tired. I"m too tired for everything. And instead of getting a day off, I get to go to work. yay. OH yeah, and Sims2 is evil. I play and play and play…

you know what OD. don't FUCK WITH ME DAMN IT. yeah, if i hadn't cut and pasted this, i'd have lost it. not that it's really... anything worth getting mad over. but GOD DAMN IT. i don't need this today. carry on.   Hello, it's Wednesday. I just paid 500 bucks for car insurance. Someone…

My neck hurts. I have 3 hickeys. (is that how it's spelled? or is it hickie. hm....) har har. Of course, in all my perversion, i like them. I like being marked. I like having something to remember sex by. my butt also hurts. you do the math. bleeding from your ass is AWFUL but how…