1994

January 1, 1994 Happy New Year! (Let's make it a really good one.) 12:55 pm I went into Reny's to work, but I wasn't on the schedule, and it was really dead so Sylvia said I could go home if I wanted to. So, Kevin and I are gonna take the baby and the camcorder and take…

January 2, 1994 12:10 am Kevin is trying to get through to Trudy for me. Maybe HE can get them to see the importance of my contacting Trudy. The anger is gone - the hurt stays on - I can't even remember why I was SO mad - my feelings got hurt about Kevin's words. 12:22 am…

December (oops!) January 2, 1993 (oops!) 1994 9:36 pm I met a I saw a woman at Reny's today that I met way back when I started working at Reny's in 1990 (she was pregnant I remember when she was pregnant, and her little girl will be 3 years old in May! She and I got to talking,&hel...

January 4, 1994 1:54 am I can't write long because I really out ought to be getting to sleep, I have a meeting with Trudy in 9 hours. I hope we don't get as much snow as the weather forecasters are predicting, because I really want to see Trudy tomorrow (today) only because if I ha...

January 1994 *this letter was written to my biological father, who had not been a part of my life for the first 23 years.* Dear Dad, I've thought really long and hard about what to write in this letter. I'm being perfectly honest, I am afraid to tell you about my childhood, I don't want…

Everything is all fucked up right now--I made a list of things that were bothering me, and I read it to K. Well, it really pissed him off when I said I wanted us to go to marriage counselling. He said that we have no problems and no counselling will help US. bcause I am a manic-depressi...

My orientation at Ames was good, I really think I'm gonna like working there. I met four other girls that are gonna be cashiers (one will be a stocker) and they were fairly nice people. I was a bit shy at first, but after an hour or 2 I warmed up. K said when I told…

I have to be going to bed soon, bcause K is tired, and I'd like to be intimate with him before he goes to sleep. (In other words I want to "fuck his brains out!") I got the job at Ames, I start training Tuesday afternoon. YES! I'll write about it later, I have more…

Today is my 24th birthday. Yeah, happy birthday to me. Ames never called, so I guess that's a "no go". Damn. I really wanted that job, almost had my heart set on it. I have to admit that I am VERY disappointed. Enough to cry my eyes out. I told K about my feelings last night, ...

This journal is my birthday present from my hubby and I am just too impatient to wait until tomorrow! (K said it was okay to start it now). THis will probably last me for a year, or close to it! Today I am waiting for word on a job that I interviewed for yesterday at Ames. I…