I May Rise…But I Refuse to Shine…

I close my eyes and pretend none of this is happening.

So much drama, and I just don’t get why it just follows you and no one else. You have a way about you…and you fall in love so easy. Sometimes you just don’t understand that what you say hurts your last loved one, when you once told them forever and a day…

But enough of that. It’s not my bag anymore, right?

Everyone and everything is irratating the piss out of me today and I can’t quite explain it. Maybe it’s PMS, maybe it’s because I started the day off on the wrong foot, maybe it’s because I’m going to the doctor today…maybe it’s a combination of things.

I feel rather acomplished for what I did yesterday. Did a total overhaul in my closet, a little spring cleaning. Got rewarded with a ‘Chocolate Rock’ from DQ…and my friends, you just can’t beat that.

I know I have a little unfinished business to take care of here in cyber space…and to be honest, I’m just trying to find those right words. Nothing comes out the way I want it to, not even this entry.

Well ladies and gentlemen, I am returning to my work day, where I haven’t done anything but stew in my skirt this morning. Someone threw packing peanuts all over the grounds, so I’m going to help clean them up, and try to enjoy a little of this ‘beautiful’ day…

…Sianara

RYN: Thanks, I like my banners too 🙂 Sounds like things aren’t super bright for you right now, sorry to hear about that. I really enjoy spending some of my time workig at a video store, watching whatever I can find, and I always watch what helps my mood, If I’m super happy, I get something in Drama, if I’m sad, I get a comedy, it’s like medicine when I go in sometimes.

Sounds like you’re both busy and stressed. Vacation time!!!

DQ and being with friends does solve and help everything.

Katie*Scarlett

April 18, 2002

RYN – Hehe thats cool. Its a very cool line in the Simpsons! lol Hope you are having a less annoying day now! Take care 🙂

Oh2bd@mnd

Hmmm you know i think i agree…..hope your UMS doesn’t last long..(ungodly mood swings *winks)…take care sweetie…miss ya….

I saw your note on Scared Bi Girl’s journal. What makes you think one cannot know what thier sexual preference is when they’re 15. If it really is as biological as I believe it is; granted forms of homosexuality and bisexuality have been around at least since ancient rome; then one should know when they begin to hit puberty, when the hormones kick in. And its not because they’re horny, but because

RYN……oh hun don’t worry about me….call me anytime…..might be on later tonight…hope everything is okay…..*hugs ya tight*

(con’t) it’s thier sexual preference. If it takes you until you’re 30 to figure it out, then you have issues. It’s not that you didn’t know, it’s that you were in denial of it. I find it great that she knows her orientation at 15. I knew mine at 13. It takes a person as long as they keep questioning thier feelings toigure it out. My guess is you are straight, correct me if I am wrong. How old were

(con’t) you when you figured out that you were straight. My guess is you knew when you were 13 or 14, so why shouldn’t she know, just because it’s a different sexuality. Sorry for the long windedness, but I had to get that point accross.

RYN: I happen to find intelligence very attractive, and until my friend mentioned it to me, I never would have thought of that, lol. Feel better!!!

RYN: I have mud in my diary???

looniverse

i tried one of those DQ things i think

...Raven Phoenix

“So much drama, and I just don’t get why it just follows you and no one else. You have a way about you…and you fall in love so easy. Sometimes you just don’t understand that what you say hurts your last loved one, when you once told them forever and a day…” if you wish to speak with Me, please speak with ME, not post private affairs in a public forum for the world to scrutinize…

RYN: Sorry that was a poor assumption on my part. I should not have inferrred your sexual orientation.

Deckan

mmmm Dairy Queen….. RYN: I am/was just south of Boston MA., well off the coast, and the blinking sign on the bank said 99 *blink* 37 *blink* 100 *blink 38 ect. Very very hot… and now its supposed to snow on monday… wtf..

Christopher_3

April 19, 2002

Sound like some stress. I think you need a lunch or to sit in that one coffe shop. Care to take me up on the offer? I hope nothing serious with the doctor visit and I hope you are having a better day today. Take care.

P.S. Oh, I have gotten my very first anonymous note leaver and she has been back every day the last few days to insult me. Gotta’ love ’em. Take care.

“I May Rise…But I Refuse to Shine… ” i just got done reading that yesterday. ~ggls softly~ I have emailed you twice, and nothing. Maybe it’s my email, i don’t know.

Hi there…i was just searching around..glad i found you..i look forward to reading more of your entries..be well