you should not take a handful of pills

No editing or prettying shall be done to this entry. lets leave it raw and funkalicious. awwww yeah baby.

hand me some of them pills…. (I took 5 pills of various sorts earlier, i’m feeling happy. frisky. shake your groove thang!)

I changed my diary to "fallish" pumpkiny colors.

The brightish orange is sorta annoying the hell out of me and I’ll change it tomorrow.

ha ha.

hi.

I have about 20 minutes of work left.

I havent’ done any real work in about 45 minutes. I ran out. I have a form to fill out, but I need NUMBERS and those NUMBERS are in the head ofs PEOPLE who are gone for this THANKSGIVINGY week.

DO you LIKE this.

I DON’T.

BUGS ME. WHY ARE THERE CAPS?! DIDN’T I TURN YOU OFF?

better.

so since Baboo thinks my crazy ways are annoying, i’m going to talk to him completely normal for the rest of the night and see how much he likes it. I bet he won’t, but I don’t care.

He kept trying to make me laugh earlier, and I did not! no no no! He was playin gthis "sad trombone" thing and giggling like a maniac (and it’s painfully cute and I hate that it’s cute cuz really I just want to be mad at him and scowl and growl and be miserable cuz he made me cry!)… and yeah. I had to bite my tongue and act like I didn’t care.

It worked.

I’m sorry if I’m snarky, I just happen to be bleeding for no other reason than my body isn’t making a baby and god hates me.

blah.

i hurt and i’m cranky and i feel ugly and giant, at the same time my pants don’t fit right an dkeep falling down and the top rolls down cuz it’s too big and really, i’m just annoyed with everything right now.

I’m allowed to be bitchfest 2008 cuz i’m on my period.

i dont’ care if it’s  cop out.

you come bleed with me and maybe you’ll whine and fuss and bitch too.

meanwhile, i really just wanna feel pretty and wanted, but i have to like… read betweens the lines and it’s annoying me right now.

just come out with it!

i’m out with it.

blah! you know it! seo there.

I was listening to this song and I want to like send it to him so bad, but he’ll just say "ew, you’re such a girl" and then I’ll want to sock his face.

I bet my sim Baboo would love to hear a mushy song about mushiness and dance with me…

and yeah. bleh.

tacos for dinner tonight. I have no idea what is for lunch tomorrow (gaspilation)

Probably ramen.

definitely ramen.

whatever.

ramen rules! *rock on signage*

of course i’m in a mood, it’s 15 minutes until I get to leave.

I will do my waste it, do the waste it daaaaaaance to the bathroom.

that made no sense.

not even to me.

delete it?

sure but whyyyy….

i’m gonna watch the second half of the Naruto movie with my heathen bots when we get home tonight. they were pretty well behaved watching it with me. I don’t get why they always fight our together time.

blah.

oh and last night Jacob brought in this paper that said he volunteered to bring in 20 bags of popped popcorn for his thanksgiving party TODAY.

*blink*

first of all, why is the teacher letting KIDS volunteer for stuff in fucking KINDERGARDEN. Is she mad?

Second, even if I had known about this, i still wouldn’t have wasted money on buying POPCORN for some dumb kindergarden party. I’m not THAT MOM. I have a fave who goes all out for her kids classes and its pretty cool… but i’m not that kind of mom. they are lucky if i send a bag of candy for valentines day. damn it.

*growl*

third: i didn’t even have money in my budget to get all the food i needed, so what makes anyone in all this world think i’m gonna have money to buy damn it to hell popcorn. really? uh no. what a DUMB TEACHER. i don’t like her. she can go suck a rock.

so when I told him that It wasn’t happening he threw a giant fit and screamed and cried. *sigh*

I also found a Picture day thingie in his bag. stupid pictures. I need to get them, but i really dont’ want to. *sigh on sistah, sigh on*

is it time to leave yet?

it’s not.

so while i suck as a "school mom", i’m trying harder in other areas.

but sometimes my kids just dont’ want to be around me, and i’m not going to MAKE THEM.

*sigh*

whatever, i’m not the parent I want to be, but I just feel like i’m spread very thin.

i do my best yo.

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i do. i do.

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nevermind.

i’m outta here. i’m gonna go pee for 10 minutes.

ok, maybe 8…

what.