Working to get my son out of there

 

and let the drama continue

What is happening.

So I went to visit my baby yesterday. He’s a mess. Girls bragging about their multiple abortions, boys talking about sex non stop, people with cutting marks from the top of their arms to their fingertips.

It’s hellish.

i can’t imagine what my 11 year olds mind must be feeling. 

Anyway, I did my best to simply be loving and encouraging. He wanted to come home and was devastated that he wouldn’t be able to. I tried to quantify it for him, let him know that it was just a few more days. He asked me why I didn’t bring the lawyer… it sucks. I just don’t have it. Of course, my husband wants to wrack up some debt to get one, but we’ll see what happens today.

I’ve called a patients rights advocacy group. I’ll see what they can do for me, or if they can refer me to a lawyer or SOMETHING. I will go to the ends of the earth to get my son out of there by tomorrow.

I have a bad feeling they won’t let him go. Not because he is a danger or anything, but because of their policies. They told me yesterday that we needed to have a family therapy session before he could be released. They said someone would call to schedule it. 
Nobody every called me.

So I called just a few minutes ago and of course the therapist can’t be found, so I left a voicemail message. 

I’ll will be calling back every hour until I talk to someone.

I am waiting for the advocate to call me back.

I will also be calling Kaiser to make sure that my request to get him discharged and out of that place is still moving forward.

I am going to do everything in my power to make this terrible sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach go away. I just know because i have insurance they will want to keep him. Guaranteed money, easy money.

I can’t let it happen.

My son is not a meal ticket or an atm card.

fuckers.

He called me this morning and he was trying to hold it together, being so brave.

I don’t give a fuck what kind of lesson he is learning or the help he needs… he is NOT GETTING IT THERE.

He is getting traumatized over and over and over again.

THIS IS NOT HELPING.

He is holding his head up as high as he can and all I can do is be here for him.

Some kid came up to him and started bullying him… calling him fat. then when Jon said to leave him alone, the kid flipped out and started shrieking that Jon was beating him up.

What the fuck?!

Jon said he is not in trouble, but that is just what he needs to get the wrong attention for them to say "he needs to stay longer"

I told Jon to stay away from that kid and be calm. I’m calling later when his case worker gets in (I spoke to someone who is not the one who has been handling his case from the start, so I want to talk to them) to make sure that they know what is going on. I don’t trust those nurses and Dr.’s

this is just a mess. I’m shocked i slept at all last night. All I can see is my sons face, sad with red rimmed eyes, asking me why I couldn’t get him out.

I can’t listen to anyone saying it’s right that he should be there.

My son needs help. I don’t know how many times I can acknowledge that. I will get that for him.

BUT HE DOES NOT NEED TO BE THERE.

Elias has been so upset this week, probably feeding off of my anxiety. He won’t let me out of his sight.

He is currently very upset that I’m on this computer.

I gotta go I guess.

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