warning: I will be a mess today.

Oh man on man oh man. MAN.

i’M SO FREAKING DISTRESSED RIGHT NOW.

my dad is in his surgery.

or like…

going there.

he had to be at the hospital at like 5 this morning, so it’s after 6 so… something is happening.

i know i should be calm but i’m freaking insanely wrecked.

terrified.

scared to death.

stupid deathcab for cutie song with the words "Love is watching someone die" and "who’s gonna watch you die" … ugh. it played on this random mix cd i made last night and now it’s running through my head like some sort of death knoll.

I need to stop thinking like this, but it’s very hard.

good thing I came in to a giant pile of work on my desk. It’s a lot of copying and mailing. so… it won’t take long. but something to do is something to do.

i don’t know when the surgery ends.

it’s going to make me crazy all day.

i apologize in advance.