tic tacs, yo. tic tacs.

Grapefruit Tic Tacs = yummy!

Who would have thought?

I bought themon a whim and at first I was like "ew" but then it got good!

So there’s a little mini review for ya.

go eat some.

So anyway, today is going to move like a turtle in tar. I swear to god.

I just did the majority of my work and I still have 2 hours and 15 minutes till lunch, and 6 hours until I can leave this place.

UGH.

Then it’s home to get my brother (who might be sick, he’s had some muscle aches and a sore throat. He’s taking ibuprofin and it seems to be working, but it’ll suck if he has strep or something and I can’t take him to a Dr… DAMN YOU SOCIAL WORKERS!) and get gas and get my kids and come home and probably pass out or watch tv or maybe play a video game (I’m playing Elder Scrolls: Oblivion right now as a warrior fighting the main quests and working my way up the scales in the gladiator aren. But don’t be fooled. I"m cheating. I’m on god mode so nothing hurts me and I can kill everything with one swack from my sword (I boosted all my necc stats) and it’s really all a matter of the story and seeing what happens.) and then cleaning and doing laundry.

My room has been taken over by a GIANT laundry monster.

there isn’t much room for it to grow, so it’s just eating my floor.

I should vanquish it before it gets too much bigger or there will be no hope.

I’m sorta broke right now. it sucks.

I can’t wait to get paid next Wednesday.

I can’t get Jons birthday presents till the actual day,but as long as he gets something, he should be cool.

He’ll die getting a PS2… die I say! But a happy still alive sort of death.

So, I am commissioning my little sisters to do some illustrations for a fantasy story I am going to "re write". I started writing it when I was about 16, but it’s lost now. I don’t think I can recover it, but I really want to finish it. My two sisters (that I grew up with from my dad and step mom, not the ones who hate me that live with my bio mom) are excellent artists and do a lot of fantasy / anime looking stuff and I would love to see what they come up with for my characters. Visual aides like that help me to write.

In the past I used to cut out pictures of celebrities and actors (primarily from soap opera magazines my bio mom would give me) and make character bio’s with the pictures pasted on the top. It’s a big tool that I used to get a lot of inspiration from because it helped me to visualize and I havent’ done it in a while.

Anyway, I hope they help me and I’ll share it all with you. But probably in a seperate diary. I have a few "alternates" that haven’t died yet, so probably one of those. So yeah,I can remember most of the plot and characters and I am going to try to re-write it. It’ll probably be better now that I’m more mature in my writing…

Anyway, what was I thinking?

OH!!!

So I got this message from facebook saying that my brother had added me as a frien ( the one staying with me).

I blindly accepted and then went to check the page and it turns out its not my brother at all… it’s HIS DAD. They have the same name.

But his dad is a horrible jerk who was abusive to my bio mom and a total dead beat Piece of shit who stole my brothers identity and ran up a bunch of bad credit on him (I’m not sure if my mom ever fixed that…) and is just a loser.

I quickly deleted him and sent him a message asking what in gods name made him think I’d want to be HIS FRIEND.

He said he was worried about his family and doesn’t talk to my mom.

Why is that my problem?

No you douche, get away from me. I haven’t responded to him yet. I don’t want him having ANY SAY in what happens with my brother or any of it!

I told my brother and I suppose if he wants to talk to him, he can, but it’s been about 10 years something since they’ve spoken, maybe less. But ugh. go away.

GO AWAY.

It is as bad as Jacobs dad if you ask me.

Anyhow, I suppose I’ll go do some work on BBD.

I am waiting on a fax, otherwise I have no work.

I’m not complaining.

I just wish time would move just a smidge faster.

I’m starting to get hungry.