thrills on wheels

Today is uneventful and yet as stupid as can be.

I had trainign for most of the morning and there is all this work I need to do and I just feel overwhelmed. I want to do about… NONE OF IT and it’s all time sensitive and needs to be done.

so instead of doing it, i come here to talk about doing it so that I can feel ready to do it.

i’m insane, quite obvious. welcome to my world.

so a brief update on my brother.

HOPEFULLY we’ll have a meeting with my mom this friday. I’m not sure, as the social worker has to call me and let me know. I don’t have any more days off till the last Friday of the month, and that’s cutting it way too close to get my brother enrolled in school. I don’t know. It’s a mess.

He texted me today and told me about how today is the first day of highschool for our sister Breanna. He is sad cuz he wanted to be there with her to go to highschool together. He said he tried to call her like 3 times last night, but nobody picked up. Then he got a call from one of their mutual friends and was told that Breanna called and said to tell him not to call anymore. I guess she sounded "robotic"… probably my mother told her to not let him call and even though she might not have wanted to do it, she had to. It really sucks and it’s not fair.

More evidence that my brother will be in hell if he goes back there. He’s really upset about all of this and is probably getting majorly depressed and I just don’t know what to do 🙁

and i’m sick of these social workers trying to kiss my mothers ass.

no, they need to just give me guardianship and be over it. we shouldn’t have to "hope" she gives me permission.

bull crap.

anyhow, it’s sad and makes me cry.

i’ve wanted to cry all day.

and alternately throw up, but that’s cuz my body hates me. IT HATES ME!!!!!

I gotta go and hope my boss is in her office so i can get her to sign crap.

my day is just thrills on wheels.