they are trying to put me into labor here *E2

I’m sitting here enjoying my spicy chicken bowl (which was so damn delicious) when someone from my section who I hardly interact with comes up and says "I was just informed that on tuesday I’ll be the division head and basically your boss"

*blink*

TUESDAY?!

then she goes on to say that the rest of the section will be "gone" but that’s she’s a nice boss and not to worry.

what the fuckety shit hell fuck it all?

Honestly, this place is going batshit crazy.

NOBODY is here to help me understand. My supervisor and my boss (who was supposed to be retiring in June but who the hell knows anymore) are both out today. I bet they don’t even know.I texted my supervisor because my head is spinning.

Are they just goign to dismantle us that quickly?

what the holy fuck?

they’re going to put  me into labor.

I can’t wait to resign.

If I didn’t want the CUTEST most expensive ass baby shit? I’d resign right now. But I’m working for about 5 more paychecks and that is what will fund Nuggets stuff (car seat stroller combo, co sleeper, swing, changing table and gliding rocker, mainly). I’m scared that when things go crazy I wont’ know what I’m supposed to do anymore.

Like, about 65% of the stuff I do now IS personnel stuff. So if they LEAVE? that goes too? right?

I have NOTHING ready to give to someone else. I’m just at a loss for words.

I need people to come back from lunch so I can talk to them.

I’m having a teensy bit of a panic attack.

I know it might not seem like anything reading this, but there is a lot of crap going on that I don’t understand.

One of my staff came up and said ‘I’m sad, we’re losing you"

WHAT THE FUCK?! I was told I wasn’t GOING ANYWHERE.

I need to calm down before I have a baby at 25 weeks.

seriously, this is bullshit.

is my old boss never coming back (she’s been sick all week)… is our current division head just leaving us cold? WHAT THE HOLY FUCK ALL FUCK?

I’m gonna be sick.

*E Oh that’s just cold. So I texted my supervisor and seems she ALREADY KNEW ABOUT ALL THESE CHANGES and is like "it’s fine"… what the fuck. You couldn’t have given me a heads up?

You know, she called me this morning and she never does that. Now I know why!

ugh

The stupid thing is that the personnel section is probably going to stay in this buidling, and my current supv is going to be a part of that, but i wont’ e able to report to her like she thinks.

My entire body hurts. I feel insane.

I want to cry.

for hours.

just cry and cry and cry.

it’s too much.

Baboo is telling me to resign now, we can get the baby stuff.

BUT WE CAN’T.  i mean, we could, but it’ll be hard. I want it to be easy.I want ot just go in the store and say "i want that and that and that" and get it.

i’m crying now.

great.

I’m not handling this stress well at all.

my blood sugar is going to be a million.

*sigh*

 *E2: Blood sugar is 174. I ate only half my rice, all the veggies and chicken. It shouldn’t be that high. The stress is causing my body to make sugar and I’ve got to calm the hell down.

fuck the world.

i really need some zombies. stat.

end this.

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