sucks to not like your own kid. *sigh*
Well… Jonathon had another outburst. He isn’t in the hospital or anything, no suicide attempts, but he’s definitely acting out.
He hates everyone and said he lies about loving us just so that we can give him what he wants.
he snapped his cell phone in half and screamed and yelled and threw clothes at me.
He told me that he doesn’t need medicine, just watching me cry makes him feel good.
it’s a terrible thing to hear a 11 year old say, and while it may all be impulse and not so true, it still hurts.
He says he doesn’t want Will to adopt him and he wants to leave this family as soon as possible. I’m sure if he could find some crack pot lawyer, he’d try to emancipate himself or something ridiculous.
I don’t know.
it just hurts.
I guess we won’t be continuing the adoption proceedings for Jonathon. Just Jacob.
and as stupid as it sounds, now I have to re-evaluate all of the birthday things we had planned.
Why spend hundreds of dollars on a child who acts this way?
I really don’t want to.
If he hates us so much, he can just stay in his room stewing in his hate and I really don’t want to be bothered anymore.
I really love my son, but right now i don’t like him one bit.
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My daughter used to beg to be emancipated. For no reason at all. I really dont understand it. I think you do what you feel you have energy for him on his birthday. He’s using yours up in stress. Honestly, I think you should treat yourself to something nice on his birthday. you are the one who deserves it. Not necessarily saying dont do anything for him b/c he’s your son & you will love him no
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matter what. but you definitely deserve to be treated to something nice and wonderful. *hugs*
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I have been here with Cody. I actually got to the point where I wish he’d follow through with calling DFCS on our family and have himself removed. I promise you… it will get better. Just stick with the therapies and keep trying. It took us 3 years, 3 years of not being able to take him out in public because of the stuff he’d do, but just today, I took him to the pool alone without fear of him…
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… doing something stupid to himself or his 8 year old sister. There was a time I was afraid he’d hurt the baby or himself or one of us… It was a long, hard road… but he was worth it… and while he’ll never be 100% ‘perfect’ he’s so much better than he was. Hang in there, and know you’ve not walked this road alone.
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This is one of my biggest fears. I still don’t really *like* my mother most of the time but I down right hated her as a kid. Shes a lot better with my daughter and has tried reaching out to me. 11 is a tough age though, and I hope things get better. *love*
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Yes. We’ve been here too. It’s a HORRIBLE feeling to hate someone you love so much; but how can you NOT feel angry at someone who’s treating you so badly?
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Behavior like that I don’t fucking know what. I know he’s emotional but there’s no need of that. Acting out I don’t know.
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i guess his memory of being locked up didn’t work much. *hugs you*
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*hugs* wish I could help.
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Im so sorry. It definitely sounds like has some emotional and/or mental issues. I dont know how to help you 🙁 big hugs and loves. Hang in there. You’re doing all you can.
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i really hope you’re following through w/ counseling for him. poor kid.
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He’s hurting, and it’s easier to be angry. You can say there’s no need for behavior like his, but he really can’t control it at this point. It’s not so much a matter of control (probably) as much as it is that he doesn’t yet have the tools he needs. He’ll get there. While he does (definitely) need consistent therapy, you also need someone to turn. You have to stay strong for your family and find
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happiness for yourself (or at least a level of less insanity). You should look into support groups for moms in your situation, and MAKE him go to therapy. It may take years for him to open up to a therapist and get something out of it, but consistency is key right now, and once he does open up he’ll improve. He’s lashing out at you and the family because he feels like it’s a safe place to do so.
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Long time no see, Toots. 😉 I’d say, better to have a kid you don’t like… than to not have one that you do. 🙂 How’s your book been doing?
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oh, M. I’m so sorry.
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🙁 *huge hugs* Love,
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