Stuff and things and blah diddy blah

 

 

 

 

Argh, Argh I say!

So I got paid today.

This is good.

Everyone smile with me.

Awww the smiles!

So after rent I have a little under 700 bucks.

Still not enough to pay childcare AND the car payment. But whatever. I’ll figure it out.

so that’s what i was talking about on my video blogs. Just my money situation is screwed. Bill collectors are spinning out of control calling me. It’s a mess. But as long as I get that ES check, I’m set. I can (hopefully) set myself back to zero and clean up my credit a bit.

PLEASE GOD.

i’m scared of not qualifying or some dumb shit. i don’t know why i wouldn’t, but you know, it’s MY life after all.

 

bah.

and the other fucked up thing i found out last night is that the owner (creepy eddie) of the house i’m renting rooms in has two potential renters for THE ENTIRE HOUSE.

Yeah. so that means what it obviously means, if they do find someone who is willing to pay their price, i’m OUT on my ass. *sigh*

I really don’t know what I’d do. My credit is basically for crap right now. I think I must be the "late payment" queen of all latepaymentvillia. It sucks. And it’s not all me, it’s also assholesuckerjerkfuckfaces car (and yes, they are still calling me)… so whee. my life sucks. I won’t be able to get into any place that’s nice (unless I can plead my case well enough. I don’t even know if that fucking eviction from the townhome I shared with my mom is on my shit. Nobody has contacted me, so I’m hoping they had mercy on me cuz I got kicked out, but who knows. and yes, my mom got her ass kicked out of there and shit. fucking christ)… but creepy eddie was  like "i can show you a room in my house in northridge. it’s nicer, but it’s just one room" *blink*

Riiiight. I really want to just have ONE room in a house with all my crap and my two kids.

Uh no.

So, yeah. that’s scaring me to death. he was like "you guys will probably have to all agree"

but you inject the PROBABLY and it makes me scared.

But whatever.

so the good news is that Jimmy can fix my headlight and said the bulb is probably only 20 bucks. I can afford that and thus drive legally.

Him and I … well i was just gonna say "fuck it" and do my adventure the way I wanted to. But we talked about it and he’s fine with doing something that is cheaper, like go to the beach or whatever. So we will probably do that. But I still want to go out for dinner and see a movie. or lunch and a movie. or whatever we end up doing. so yeah. that should be fun.

He’s awesome, have I mentioned that today?

He called me dumb last night when i said I really wanted to talk to him and it made me crazy that i couldn’t (because I have to conserve my phone minutes right now) and he was like "you’re dumb" so that made me sad. But later he was like "I say things even if they are dumb" and i guess it makes sense. I should tell him what I feel even if it does elicit that response cuz obviously, he doesn’t think I’m THAT dumb or he wouldn’t talk to me.

and he can’t dislike me adoring him either.

cuz that would be counterproductive to the whole thing we have going.

so yeah, that’s that with the video blogs.

I gotta go do some work. Seriously. I’m going to do some! I promise! cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye.

So I’m excited about Saturday again. 🙂

I’m going. really!

*zoom*