Stress Releasing Lunatic Rant! Wheee!

You know what’s sad?

Looking at an empty raisin box and SIGHING.

Yes friends.

I just ate the second half of the box of raisins I had for breakfast… and I sighed as I chewed the last little morsel of raisin.

Oh damn you diet, damn you!!!

According to the website I use (sparkpeople.com), I’m right at the bare bottom of calories needed for each day.

lame, but whatever.

I can’t eat what I want, cuz that puts me over, and when I eat what I feel like I should, I’m scrambling for snacks to put me at 1200 calories.

LAME.

I just can’t wait until I’m at my "goal" and I can gain and drop 5 to 10 pounds without caring too much.

IT COULD HAPPEN.

damn you raisins.

so to illustrate my stupid diet frenzy, here is what i’ve had today.

Breakfast: 28 almonds (a serving size! And they were plain, not roasted or salted, sooo good though!) and half a box of raisins (the box is 1.5 oz…)

Snack: 2 cups of water (ha ha I KNOW that’s not a snack, I just don’t have anything for a mid morning snack these days)

Lunch: Lean Cuisine Chicken Fried Rice and a granola bar

Snack: Half a box of raisins and a vitamin. wheee! (I think a snack now is more important since I’m going to work out, and the vitamin should give me some energy… we’ll see…)

Dinner: I’m stuck. I WAS gonna have spagetti, but I will sorta need that for lunch tomorrow, so I’m torn on if I should have that or left over chicken stir fried with kung pao sauce and some noodles and veggies tonight.

Snack: chips and salsa…. and i MUST have the chips and salsa or I only have 980 calories for the stupid dumbassidydumb day!

argh! 

I am also going to the gym (not sure if Baboo is coming tho…) and I’ll probably try to do 20 minutes on the evil bike (it NEVER registers my heart rate or does anything with the damn resistance, so I have to do it on my own and it’s annoying!) and another 20 on an eliptical or stair swishy machine. I say stair swishy cuz it’s the eliptical step without the arm movements. I do like the arm movements.

I think I will make my personal trainer appointment for either the end of this week or next week. I need to learn how to do some weight training and see what I can do for my abs…

blah blah blah.

who CURRS!

HERE’S SOMETHING!!!

It’s about my nose.

My nose is very dry and feels full of hard boogers.

hahaha.

but guess what… IT’S NOT.

there is NOTHING IN MY NOSE. I’ve checked (chortle)… so why does it feel so crackly in there?

I can feel a damn bloody gush coming any second. (from my nose…)

Hows that for pretty?

I should go read favs. I’m sorely behind. I’m sorry folks.

folks and gents and hair in my cleavage.

so i love my mp3 player.

did I mention I got it to work?

yeah, I had to re set it and then it was like "oh yeah!!!"

and it has really good video quality! I have to find a way to get some tv shows or something on it. ha ha.

for free of course. har har.

Ew, I just killed a gnat with my hand.

but those buzzard faces are STILL FLYING AROUND ME EVERY DAY.

go the hell away!

damn it!!!!

so like 50 minutes of work left.

ew.

50 is gross.

go away!

ha ha.

i have to pee.

I haven’t pee’d all day.

pee pee musical tink.

whatever.

i’m trying to not be so stressed. i will deal with things as they come. no need to go nuts in the meanwhile.

and baby talk can wait too.

damn desire for children types! arrrrrrgh.

and so it goes.

my head sorta hurts.

must be more brains dying…