So what if you’re not a damn doughnut…

Food helps.

I hate that.

but I had some lunch (my delicious half a bar b qued chicken feast from the place up the street, that will not only feed my joyful taste buds TODAY,but also TOMORROW! YAAAAY!!!!) and i’m munching on a 100 calorie pack of oreo thin crisps (so addictive. I wonder if it defeats the point to have like 3 little bags of them? ha ha, i’m kidding. Even though it’s tempting, i do limit myself to one little bag!)… and I feel better.

Less scattered across my mind like a bunch of random insane marble demons from hell.

I’m sure I’m just deflecting it all.

I did some work.

That’s why it’s taking me so long to get thru my fav’s. I haven’t even gotten to most of todays entries yet.

SLACKER!!!!

so I shall do that today.

Must add Darlingnikki to my sim list.

Do you have pets? hrm… oh well. I could just add you alone. I know that a few people will probably end up in the same house, or on the same lot so I can have lots of control of all the action all at once.

And best believe there will be pictures galore.

Sims are crazy.

I have this one family, all that is left is the mother and grandfather. I adopted two stray dogs.

WHO WON’T EAT.

it’s ANNOYING. i lined up 9 bowls of food and they still won’t eat it.

THEY JUST WANT TABLE SCRAPS.

bah.

so they are gonna get taken away or something. i don’t care.

why am i talking about these sims like they are important.

Lets talk about something important.

Uhhh, some little beast of a child stole jonathons jacket and his waterbottle from school.

He claims that the teacher knows and was gonna get it back.

it has not been returned.

random.

christmas flyers suck.

Jacob asked me when he was gonna get to see his daddy. And maybe I should just get him a new one.

I told him that his daddy was stupid. (i know i shouldn’t, but I couldn’t help myself at the time, it always throws me off guard and i get angry… not at jacob, but at that fucking loser for being a fucking loser) Then I told him that I was his mommy and his daddy and that was good enough for now and maybe someday he’d get a dad, but for now it’s just me and he has lots of uncles (five of them to be exact, the sixth doesn’t quite know he’s an uncle. long story…) to show him boy stuff.

and he laughed and said "yay" and ran away.

oh to be three.

speaking of which.

i took a good long look at my little three year old last night and just held him close and loved on him. he’s still a little kidlet and i love him to pieces and lately i’ve been sorta detached from just how precious he is. Him and Jonathon both.  I just see them as "my kids"… but i know i have to hold onto them as they  are in each phase of their lives and enjoy it. he won’t always be my little pumpkin who has more fun sitting in my lap than he has doing anything else.

i love my kids.

they are awesome.

So that’s what I’ll focus on for now because I’m damn lucky and I’m damn blessed and I’ll be damned again if I mope around feeling sorry for myself for the rest of this stupid ass day because I’m not a doughnut.

damn it.