shhh it’s a secret and i’m not telling you

 

 

 

 

did some stuff today.

i came here wanting to write, but it doesn’t feel right.

because my mood will change in two minutes.

and i’m sick of myself.

i’m not in the best of moods, but i think i’m faking it pretty well.

i feel sorta sick and its hotter than fuck.

it’s 97 degrees and feels like at LEAST that.

i’m not going to elaborate on anything.

i just don;t want anyone to know.

is that wrong?

i don’t want anyone to know what i’m feeling or how i am.

i want everyone to think i’m doing good and feeling fine.

i want to fool anyone who comes into contact with me so they can go away feeling positive.

 i want to harbor all of my feelings in a deep swirling pit in my stomach.

it’s where it belongs.

i don’t want to share and i don’t want to vent.

at least not in the traditional way.

i don’t want anyone ot know.

i want to be unknown.

i want to cease to exist.