Puppy w/pic, pain, … uhh pizza?

I feel really sad about the dog. I wish we could keep him. I wish he was perfect and fit into our home and was amazing.

But it’s just not like that. I don’t get the feeling he’s meant to be our dog. But he is meant to be someones dog.

Reasons why he isn’t meant to be ours? Well….

He’s VERY BARKY and SO SCARED. He locks his legs and won’t move and he’s not fitting in very well. Puppy DOES like him and wants to play and they get along great at least, but the family inside of the house dynamic just isn’t clicking.

 Jonathon cried when I said we weren’t going to keep him long… but he got over it. It’s just one of those situations when you KNOW an animal is meant to be in your family and when you simply don’t feel it.

And I don’t.

I knew Ceaser was supposed to be ours from the moment his little eyes met mine. And he’s been SO PERFECT. We’ve had our issues and such, but really… he’s the best. This new dog, my kids are calling him Leo, feels out of place. I’m sorta hoping someone on my Facebook will see him and want him. I don’t want to just give him away to any old body. I just read a scary article about people who take dogs from "free to good home" ads and then do mean things to them 🙁

So yeah, I don’t want to do that quite as much anymore.

We are still gonna clean him up and make him even cuter (because he IS cute…!!!) and then I might possibly put him in the shelter for whatever period they keep them and if nobody takes him by that date, we’ll take him back. It’s less likely someone is gonna pay 100 bucks for a dog just to be mean to it. Plus, whoever adopts him will have to get him fixed and he’ll also get shots and a check up with a vet! All of which I just can’t afford at the moment. i thought for sure this dog had been better cared for,b ut the people I got him from hadn’t even NAMED HIM. They had no inforamation about the dog. It was very sad. Anyway, I don’t think he’ll last long in the shelter cuz he IS very cute and will probably be friendly once he gets over being scared!

Anyhow, a part of me thinks that MAYBE he’ll grow on me when I spend more time with him… but I’m not sure. He’s not house trained so it’s hard to even have him inside because I don’t want him peeing all over the minute I turn my head. He seemed to be ok with the cats though and didn’t chase them or bark at them.

But he DOES bark… a LOT. Since puppy doesn’t, it’s hard to really be used to an animal making all that noise for no reason. heh… We ARE spoiled, and there is no say another dog we might want WONT’ be very barky… so ya know, that isn’t the main reason. Just one thing that sorta bothers me…I don’t know. I want him somewhere good, but I don’t think it’s with me.

Baboo agrees. Something just isn’t clicking.

Plus, I thought he was TINY TINY… and that’s what I really want. Either tiny tiny hold it in your hadn froo froo purse dog, or GIANT big galumphing doofus (but not dumb) dug. heh.

Oh well.

In other news, my period is a raging whore  who is compacting, quite possibly, an entire YEARS WORTH of pain and agony into the last few hours of my life. I woke up at 3 am feeling as if someone had crumpled me up and thrown me into a dumpster which was now compacting me into a tiny ball of broken bones. Everything hurt, I was sweating buckets, and my mouth was so dry you’d think I hadn’t had any water for days.

It was very hard to get up and come to work this morning, but I’m here. Of course I coudln’t find my midol and I had to settle on ibuprofin, but so far it’s working to take the edge off all this pain.

A part of me thinks that maybe I’m early early miscarrying, but who knows. I’m not gonna worry about it.

I tried to propose no more sex for the year to Baboo, but he was like "that’s just unreasonable!"

lol… well I usually have to fight and beg to get a piece, so I’m not sure why he wasn’t all over that.

But whatever. We’ll see. I know I’m probably the LAST person who would be able to hold off on sex for three months plus… but I’m willing to try it so I don’t have another stupid "oh god, where’s my period!" episode for a while.

honestly, If I could be on the pill, I’d so be on it right now… but I can’t be.

I just don’t want to go through this next month… or the month after or after or after!!!

I want the next time I’m worrying about pregnancy to be when we are actually TRYING… which won’t be until perhaps April or May of next year… whatever.

We had some tense moments last night because I was sensitive and he was grouchy and hungry, but in the end he held me tight and all was well.

I FINALLY TOOK THE TRAIN this morning.

but when I walked in, for some reason, i got really hot and I was sweating like I ran a marathon and my heart was pounding out of my chest. Couple that with myc ramps doing a two step on my pain receptors and I wanted to crawl under my desk and die.

But here I am.

And I’ve managed to even facebook a little.

I didn’t even do HALF of my normal facebooking last night. I was sleep before 10!

Anyway, I gotta get to work.

But since you’ve endured this entry this long, I shall now post the puppy picture I took last night (It’s also on my facebook)

Now… about that pizza…

I REALLY WANT SOME.

the end.