pretty pointless

I gotta pee.

I took my blood pressure meds.

they should be called "make you pee all day" meds.

blah.

today is moving like a snail on SLOW CRACK.

i mean honestly, it feels liek I should be going HOME.

At least I work one less hour. That’s nice. I like less hours. lol.

but i like full paaaaaaaaaay.

 

ya know, having to pee like this isn’t fun. I should just go pee.

I feel better now. I know you were very anxious about my urination too!!!

omiga pee!

 

I can’t wait to go home. Even if it means I have to deal with my persnickety children. They’ve both lost their minds. It makes my head hurt.

I want to play some video games. I would play Sims, but I’m waiting for the Pets to get here so I can add them to my families 😉

As far as sex and alcohol and babies, here’s how it goes for me right now:

We’ll have sex if we have sex. I am going to do my BEST to not ask for it. If we go 3 months without having any, that will have to be fine. I know I get horny and lusty and crazy, but I’ll get over it. I’ve got a great visualization technique I’m working with that helps to diffuse my tension.

I will drink moderately, but try to NOT have an entire bottle of champagne in one night like I normally do. I might just stick to a few beers to relax me, but nothing else. If we do have sex around my fertile period (which I’m still keeping track,taking my temps and all that crap) I will refrain from drinking until my next period starts. If we do not have sex around that time, I’m not gonna worry about it.

Fuck you if you have an opinion. You can suck my butt. go ahead. suck it.

I don’t think we’ll be having much sex at all. Especially if I don’t ask for it. Especially if I don’t tell him I’m off my period. he will think it’s going on forever if I don’t mention it. So I’m not.

this could call change. We could have sex once and I could freak out and not drink a drop.

but who cares.

I’m broken anyway.

blaaaaaaaaaaah.

I’m hungry for lunch, but I must be good and eat healthy.

We’re finally buying a vacuum cleaner! My front rug is getting a cleaning and I’ll start dancing and doing my pilates and crap.

The first time a damn spider crawls on me, I’m outta there though! lol.

I’m hoping I can lose at least 5 pounds a month for the rest of this year. Yeah, that’s only like 15 pounds, but 15 pounds is almost half of what I’d like to lose! My goal is to lose 45 pounds, but if I can lose 15 – 20 before we start trying for a baby again, that could be all my baby weight right there and I won’t whale down the road in a blorp blimp.

My dream is that when I do get pregnant, people notice because my stomach is cute and round, not just more huge than normal. You have no idea how fucking fat I am. ugh.

enough of that.

I should go.

I just wrote this because I felt like I needed to say something, but as always, I’m pretty pointless.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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