Ping Pong

It’s one of those DAYS… bah!

I slept horribly last night. I kept having stupid dreams, and yes, karma saw fit to fill my dreams with babies.

really gorgeous ones with dimpled smiles, silky black hair and green eyes.

Stupid everything, that’s all I have to say.

Ugh.

well, speaking of babies, I pick up my kids tonight. They are hardly babies at 5.5 and 7.5. Bah. Jacobs birthday is next month. I have to figure out what I’m gonna do.

I miss my kids. They provide a distraction from my thoughts.

I weighed my self last night and cried for half an hour.

Yeah, I regained EVERYTHING… EVERYTHING!!!!

I’m back to where I was last year when I first got serious… hell, I’m back to where I was 2 years ago.

It really sucks and I’m angry.

I did take a break for my birthday and through this week.

I plan on keeping my break until Sunday… and then I’m back.

No more breaks.

Gym 3 times a week or more.

DDR 2 times a week or more.

Readjusting my diet to reflect smaller portions and less fried and fatty foods.

Cutting out the amount of soda from one or two a day to one or two a week.

Low fat snack and dessert options.

I don’t want to make my eating habits miserable.

I just have to make them better for me.

I probably won’t be going back on the salad diet simply because I don’t have money for the salad stuff. It’s too expensive. I will try to eat more of them though, just not daily.

And so it goes.

This last weekend of fun, with my boys.

We’ll have Mcdonalds I’m sure.

And we’ll go shopping tomorrow and pick out some stuff they want me to cook. Maybe I’ll make pork chops… or pork roast sandwiches.

Whatever. blah blah blah.

At least it’s Thurfriday!!!

I stayed up late last night watching DVR stuff.

I watched last weeks Making the Band.

Not sure if anyone watches that, but I am just so mad and sad about Danity Kane.

It’s like… gone.

I liked that group!

Diddy hinted that he may get the entire group together for the live finale tonight.

I might watch it live if I can get home in time. I know the group will never get back together. Especially with Aubrey (who was my favorite) turning into porn girl.

Blah.

I ramble on about nothing because the things on my mind are annoying.

I’ll be back later.

I HOPE Baboo can send me some of the Vegas pics today. But there are a lot so I doubt he can send them all to me… unless he uploads them to an album we can share.

We’ve been sharing a lot of things recently.

Yesterday I gave him access to my Netflix account so he can add movies and see what’s going on.

Does this mean we’re getting closer? Or am I just a suckah?

Whatever.

I have to call him in five minutes and wake his lazy butt up.