Ovulation, giant boobs, and obsessions *E

Guess what!!!

I’ve had sex TWO DAYS IN A ROW! *dances the dance of sex*

MMHMMM.

It was so delicious last night.

SO VERY.

There were kisses and touches and wow.

And lasted a good amount of time. Effort was involved.

deliciously scrumptious.

and warm.

and soft.

mmm.

Ok, enough of that!

Guess what else!!!!

My boobs have decided to swell up. Busting forth from my bra is an overwhelming amount of boobage. Right now I have a muffintop in my bra. It’s that little plump that goes over the side. Yep.

Baboo noticed almost immediately yesterday. He’s all "What’s up with the tittayz" lol.

I think it’s because I’m ovulating.

I might be extra sensitive right now, but i could FEEL my ovary last night. lol.

I was like laying in bed and I felt this pressure on my right side, right where Miss Righty would be. It throbbed and then it cramped and then it throbbed some more. Definitely releasing an egg.

Poor thing will be wasted. Sorry eggy, no sperm for you!!!

Unless something untowards happened last night that I’m not aware of!

Baboo and I misbehave and for the first half to 3 quarters of our coupling (do you like my expanded vocabulary today?!), we do not use a condom. Shame. Shame on us *smirk*

So yeah, things DO occur. We are NOT using the pull out method. I know that doesn’t work! *Edit* We use condoms the last portion of the time we do it… if that’s not clear. we do use protection when it’s "needed" lol… but oopsies could occur, i wouldn’t mind. I know, I"m horrible. I almost pulled the damn thing off last night, damn my vagina and it’s desire to clamp down so fiercely. lol. way too much tmi… *wink* *end edit)

so yeah…

so my ovaries are releasing eggs and my hormones are going crazy and my boobs are busting out creating super puffy cleavage (and they even seem more perky because of the added volume. lol, if only they would stay this way!) and I’m just a fertile baby making machine…

I hate that it’s wasted.

My brain is like zoned in on wanting to create this baby.

Case in point: This morning as I’m brushing my teeth I look over at the bathtub and this really vivid technicolor image pops in my head of one of those baby bathtubs sitting in the middle with this cute, chubby cheeked, curly dark haired angel of a girl sitting in it laughing and splashing. She’s beautiful and gorgeous and I WANT HER.

god waiting is a bitch.

i want all my shit taken care of NOW.

DIVORCE TAKEN CARE OF, MONEY TAKEN CARE OF, RELATIONSHIP ADVANCES *wink wink nod nod* TAKEN CARE OF AND FERTILIZATION OF MY EGG TAKEN CARE OF.
 

I know for sure, this is what I want. I’ve never been this firm in my belief that I’m on the right road with this man.

GOD THIS BABY. (that doesn’t exist yet)

I know, I’m obsessing, and that’s just how it is right now.

I’m ovulating. this is what us breeders do. We ovulate and we want to complete the process. We want to see the "you’re pregnant’ on the test. We want to get fat and giant and feel kicks and be miserable. We want to suffer through the labor pains and horror that we forget the moment our baby is placed in our arms. We want to smell that newborn baby smell and see this little human that we helped make sleep safely and securely next to our bodies.

If you’re NOT a breeder, then you don’t feel that way. and that’s fine. I make no qualms about the fact that I am a certified human population machine. Granted, I will probably only bring 3 humans to this earth, but that’s fine and dandy. As long as I get to do it one more time with this man that I love. Our baby will be just as amazing as my first two children, and I long for that.

It’s not wrong to not want kids or to not have the same intensity in the baby making feelings. It’s what makes humans so awesome, we aren’t the same. Can you imagine how insane it would be if we were ALL BREEDERS.

Jesus, we’d be like crazed rabbits and the earth would fall out of orbit because it would be too heavy.

lol.

Anyway, I"m rambling and I really should get to work.

I got here an hour late. oops! Much work awaits me!