MoTuesday *edit*

I love this week already.

 

Even though i’ve got a 2 day headache going on strong (no medication is working. tried aspirin, extra strength aspirin, tylenol, ibuprofen, and i made a special trip for advil….)… nothing is working.

i want vicodene.

that always works.

bah.

it’s like a throb right behind my eyes that radiates over the top of my head down to the base of my neck.

so much joy and fun.

but, like i said, i love the week.

i only have to work 3 days of it, can only get better in 2 weeks, when i only have to work 2 days. Thus the MoTuesday. yep. tomorrow Wethursday. and the next day? why… simple joyous friday.

i’m very jumpy right now.

bah.

I had a W attack this morning. driving to the vanpool stop. it just sorta took hold of my heart and shook it around a little bit.

but all is well.

not any more depressed than normal.

i can’t think of what i did this weekend except for scream, fret over computer doom (which it stayed pretty functional last night, but i am still not sure), and sleep.

excitment abounds.

i guess i’m trying to wake up with this entry and it’s not working.

i’ll go roam the office i guess.

 *edit*

this song was playing in my car when i got in… thus the W attack. It’s so how I feel …

 Lacrymosa Lyrics

By Evanescence

Out on your own,
Cold and alone again.
Can this be what you really wanted, baby?

Blame it on me,
Set your guilt free.
Nothing can hold you back now.

Now that you’re gone,
I feel like myself again.
Grieving the things I can’t repair and willing…

To let you blame it on me,
And set your guilt free.
I don’t want to hold you back now love.

I can’t change who I am.
Not this time, I won’t lie to keep you near me.
And in this short life, there’s no time to waste on giving up.
My love wasn’t enough.

And you can blame it on me,
Just set your guilt free, honey.
I don’t want to hold you back now love.

 

*sigh*

i hate that I can’t stop loving him.