Midnight Blue

So I totally forgot to write about how comfortable little Ceaser is getting! He is so funny!

So last night I was on my computer and he made a little gruffly sound and I looked over and he was trying to have a go at my SHOE! I told him to leave it and gave him a toy. ha ha. He didn’t seem interested in his toys at first, but he is more into them now. he even spent a good time chewing on one of the bones I got him. I thought he didn’t like them! We even did some tug of war and I let him win.

He does have a thing for "yarn" though, he found a ball of my yarn and ran away with it. I told him to stop, which he did, but he would NOT LET GO of that yarn ball. He had a death grip on it for real! I was like "You’re not a pit bull! Leave it!" ha ha. He was not going to "leave it" if he had anything to do with it. Eventually he did open his mouth, but I can tell he’s got a stubborn streak! I broke my "no puppies on my bed" rule though. I put down a towl and let him cuddle with me.

At the time I needed it. I was a bit depressed last night. Baboo’s phone died and we weren’t able to talk and I just had a bunch of stuff fall on my head that I was not processing very well. Betrayal feels so horrible. I don’t understand it. If you don’t like someone, why pretend? Seriously, why waste your life pretending you care about someone that you don’t? It’s just ridiculous.

Anyway, it wasn’t a good night, but I did manage to cook dinner for today and watch some DVR stuff while I cuddled with the puppy. I probably shouldn’t call him a puppy since he’s over a year old, but I can’t help it!

It’s very gloomy today, as it should be. Match my mood weather! MATCH MY MOOD!!!!

god I’m having really bad cramps… I usually get some really intense ones on the 3rd or 4th day and here they are. They are bad this month and they decided to bring along some nausea and a headache so they wouldn’t be lonely. blah.

So my step mother and I planned to take Jonathon to the beach on his actual birthday. I think I’ll surprise him with the zoo on Friday or Saturday after. Or maybe even the Friday of the next week (since they’ll be making me take the day with no pay by then)… we’ll see.

god i hurt.

I feel so un-alive right now.

like blah.

Lunch in half an hour. I have a diet frozen pizza. *lackluster twirl*

If I was a color, I’d be midnight blue. (one of my favorite crayons ha ha)