little bit of good, whole lot of bad

OMG!

I hate today.

Just saying.

So there will more than likely be a lot of rambly entries from me today. I have THINGS to talk about. Like sex. Like my dumb car. Like my dumb finances. Like my dumb everything.

I was in SUCH an under-stressed good mood lately, it was bound to all come tumbling down on me and make me upset. I’m just so angry that my transmission is going out. Why do I have all this horrible luck with cars? I mean seriously, it’s crap and I’m totally undone about it because I just don’t want to have to use money that is supposed to go towards rent and bills on fixing my car. I wanted to catch up on my finances and be ok.

but now it’s not looking so good.

I do plan on calling my credit union today and see if they can give me a loan. I want about 10K.

I know that’s a lot right?

But it will help me debt consolidate and pay for my car repairs.

That’s what I’m hoping.

The credit union can then take like 400 bucks a paycheck (that they already sorta take anyway, it goes into a savings acct) to pay it off. My credit is crappy and I’m pretty sure they’ll say no. but I have to TRY.

I really do.

*sigh*

the one bright spot in all of this is that it’s not going to effect my trip to see my Love Muffin at all! Nope! I am renting a car for that little exscursion, so I don’t even have to worry about my dumb car for the few days I’m gone and the rest of the weekend once I get back. I turn the car back in on Jan 5th so I have up until then.

I might try to put the car into the shop on Saturday when I get home, but it all depends on how much it costs if I can fix it. If I can’t fix it, then I guess I just park it until I can. I will have to go back on an evil 8 hour a day 5 day a week schedule again, no more thurfriday *sob* so that I can take the bus. I will have to figure out a new way to go shopping and yeah… just save up my pennies until I can pay for it.

I dont’ WANT to use my income tax return money on anything but bills, the divorce and moving. but it looks like it’ll probably go into my car and the divorce.

and I may not get to move.

I am very upset about this, but what can I do if I don’t have a car?

DISTRESS DISTRESS DISTRESS!

I did get a BUNCH of presents from my co workers. I plan to line them all up and take a picture.

I feel loved.

hee hee.

my brain hurts.

I’ll be back.