*kaboom*… that was my eye

 This morning is moving slower than a frozen turtle racing a frozen snail in the tundra on a frozen planet where time moves half as fast as it should because it’s frozen.

yep.

I keep looking at the clock and like 2 mintues have passed and it’s pissing me off cuz I’ve actually been doing WORK. Like real, honest, in depth work. But it feels like I’m doing it in a fog because I’m honestly sick as fuck right now and my ear is simply THROBBING and there is nothing I can do but sit here and suffer because I need to be "seen" at work and blah blah blah, they can all kiss my ass.

I hope we all get sick cuz I feel obligated to be here.

LET’S ALL DIIIIIIIIE.

bitches.

Anyway, just to calm anyone’s worries that I’mc razy and spazzy and I’m just gonna hop in myc ar and run away to Texas and throw my family, including my brother, into a tailspin… it’s not that serious.

If we were gonna move, it wouldn’t happen for months, probably not until October. I’m just thinking about it right now because it is calming for me to start considering my options as soon as I can, rather than have to scramble and go crazy if the need arises.

Who knows, maybe I’ll survive all this madness and be ok.

I have no idea right now.

which is the worst part because NOT knowing anything just makes me create a whole world of craziness in my head.

and since I’m already insane, it’s not a good look.

wow, so i have to end this. my eye is throbbing now.

ugh.