Irrational Fears and other fun shiz

Sometimes, when I’m walking down the street I have to really stop and think if I’m actually wearing pants. For some reason, I have a weird irrational fear that I’m going to forget to wear my pants.

Yesterday, when I was going to get my spicy chicken bowl, I stopped at the restroom and forgot to zip my pants up. That’s always fun. I was already outside and across the street before I noticed the breeze.

I have also acquired a fear of peeing in the bed. I know right! But seriously, at night when I’m going either before I go to sleep or when I wake up to go, I always stop before I release and think "Am I really awake? Am I about to pee in the bed?!"

I’m not really sure what’s wrong with me, but it’s safe to say my insanity is NOT getting better.

So I just printed and signed my letter to Wells Fargo. We’ll see if they even acknowledge it. *sigh* I hate Wells Fargo. They are asshats with herpes.

I am keeping a copy and making sure every step is documented. I suppose if they don’t respond by the end of this month, I will have to call them. But I’d rather not.

So, to get it OUT of my system, a little Sims 3 mania break: It still isn’t working. Baboo found a "newer" release and downloaded it for me. I uninstalled the other one, did a disc clean up and defrag, re-installed the game and did a test run. A test run is basically loading up a house and letting the Sim do whatever it wants until the game decides to crash. ha ha.

I did give this sim a job in the journalism career.

Oh yeah! I also turned off all my background apps (including my anti virus), turned the settings on the game all down to low (and it looked ok, but not as pretty *sob*) and didn’t mess around with zooming and turning the camera, which is what triggered the crashes in the past (or so I thought)…

Game ran for EXACTLY 20 MINUTES again and crashed the computer into a hard restart. I hate those. It’s probably gonna fuck up my system if I keep trying it. *sigh*

so my only other option is to try the patch Baboo downloaded (I don’t think it’ll work) and if that doesn’t work, then I have to give up until either EA releases a patch to address the crashing issue (I’m thinking it has to be some sort of overload of… something. I mean, why would the game run BEAUTIFULLY for 20 minutes and my load times are less than 2 minutes and I can spend hours making a sim with no problem if the game can’t run on my system? That makes no damn sense!), or risk buying the actual game and seeing if it works. I’m thinking if I buy it from Wal Mart or Target and take it back saying it was a gift, they might give me in store credit. I doubt it… but it’s worth a shot. A mean… a gift should be returnable! Damn it!.. and yeah.

So I’m still obssessed and depressed.

I just need a new computer. But that’s really not happening for another year or so unless some magical money falls from the sky, and as we all know, that’s not happening! At least not to me!!!!

Anyway, I was a total slug for dinner and made frozen burritos and corn dogs. I’m not sure what we’re having tonight since Baboo asked me to come pick him up and I probably will cuz I need hugs! I want to go to the store and pick up something… but I’m not sure what. I really only have 25 more bucks in my food budget and another 40 in my gas budget. Blagh! total blagh!!!!!

I also looked for my birth certs. For some STUPID REASON I can’t find Jonathons. I have gotten TWO REPLACEMENTS for that boy and they are BOTH LOST. I have no idea. I am going to call Bally’s and complain. I am paying for a membership that includes this kids club. It is the ONLY WAY I can utilize their gym more than twice a month. If they refuse to let me use what I’m paying for because I might be bring children that aren’t mine (which is NOT the case) then I am going to demand that they cancel my membership. Fuck the gym damn it. FUCK THE GYM!!!!!

But that’ll be later.

What else.

Uhhhh.

Puppy and the kittens are starting to get used to each other. The cats were on the floor this morning when he ran into my sons room. They just stared and Ember ran under the bed. I think when he gets too close for too long they hiss and he barks a little, but otherwise, I think it’s only a matter of time before they are friends playing and sleeping in a giant pile of fur.

I think when they do become friends it’ll be nice for puppy. I think he craves animal on animal interaction. ha ha. He gets all excited when he sees them and his tail starts wagging.

He’s such a love.

I almost took his cone off last night, but I looked and his stitches are not completely dissolved, so I’ll leave it on till the weekend. Poor thing wants it off so badly and he’ll be so much easier to cuddle without it!

Oh! I just read that my step mom replied to my Facebook message and she said she’ll watch the boys for the extra weeks in August! That will be sweet. She says she might be boring (which won’t matter if they are outside playing and doing stuff) and she may get a job (which will SUCK, but I might be able to recruit a sibling to do it for the money, I’m sure they’d love it and it’s not that long!) before the end of summer (but god only knows about that with all the rest of this hooplah, who is going to be hiring from county govt? I could be wrong, but ya never know. I’ll keep my options open)… so YAY.

Stress relieved! I will be playing it by ear still and I bet even my dad would watch them if I paid him.

My family has no qualms about asking for money for services. If it was a "normal" summer, they’d probably take them for free. But they are hurting for money too and I am offering it, so that is that. It’s about  700 to 800 bucks LESS than what I’d have to pay otherwise and they will be flexible with me as far as when I pay… a real daycare wants payment on TIME and weekly and that is gonna be tricky.

I’m almost positive that for their Winter break in December I’ll be able to send them out for free. ha ha…

Anyway, a lot of stress is lifting.

My next thing is to send in the letters to the DMV and post office to request info on stupid dickface jerkwad.

I have to get this shit over with. I’m sick of having THAT hang over my head too. He has done enough damage.

Anyway, I suppose I should get to work. I don’t feel much motivation these days.

At least it’s Wednesday!