I’m tired

I’m tired.

I don’t sleep well.

I wake up with aches and pains and contractions and the like.

It’s rough.

I’m happy to get a straight hour these days.

Spiders are taking over my house. I killed one the size of a dime on my arm this morning. I am not amused. I was arranging baby stuff. I do not want spiders on my baby. If my damn husband doesn’t spray the house with the damn bug shield crap we bought I’m gonna lose my mind.

Getting our home security installed tomorrow and everything is a mess. I’m too tired to clean anymore and I did about a 50th of what I planned to do. I need help. I wish my kids are home. They are still with my parents. I’ll be calling them tonight.

I’m about to eat a chili dog. I’ve been craving them. I must have one. I miss checking my blood sugar of all things. I just don’t know if I’m on track anymore.

I have an ultra sound today to measure the size of the baby. And more monitoring. Lets hope my blood pressure is ok. It was a little high last time and my headache that won’t completely go away is probably going to make the nurses give me that "look" that says "whhy didn’t you go to L&D?!"

bah I don’t wanna go. leave me alone.

I want my baby here, but I"m not ready.

I did wash most of his clothes and blankets and stuff, but the house is just NOT clean enough. I feel like I need to clean it, but I’m fucking tired and in pain and I can’t do anything. I’m so tired.

bah.

anyway, got a new ticker: Here’s a scary thought: Mommy’s uterus is now a thousand times its original size. YIKES. I’m 35 weeks and 1 day old, only 34 days to go!

Yeah, giant ass uterus.

Oh, so we took a maternity tour and i’m so excited about having the baby at this hospital. It should be completely different from my past experiences. They will give me the baby right out of hte womb (as long as he’s ok), before they swept my boys away for at least 10 minutes to clean and evaulate them first. so I’m excited ot have him all goopy and gross on my chest, lol.

Then, they have private recovery rooms which makes me SO HAPPHY. No loud crazy ass roomies. People who were around or read what happened after Jacob can sympathize. I did not have a good experience with that at all!

They let me keep the baby all the time, no taking him away so I can "rest" like they did before. They only take the baby to do exams adn whatever and Baboo can follow them and video tape everything they are doing.

Baboo can sleep in the room with me and we get a celebration dinner after. It’ll be really nice. I hope I can go home after 24 hours, but I have always had to stay 2 days so I’m not getting my hopes up. 

I’m excited to have my baby. I want him to stay in as long as he needs to to be healthy, but if he’s healthy NOW, he can come on out. lol.

I’m just so tired and I want to be back to normal.

I need my hot dog now.

NEED IT.

hot dog… mmmm…

 

 

 

Oh yeah, I have a ticker. Look at that!

 

 

 

 

 

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