I’m sorta crazy

Well, my work internet went completely down and I wasn’t able to come ot OD all morning! (after my first entry)

So I went crazy!

I think I’m a bit too addicted to having a constant distraction. Like, working for more than 10 minutes actually made me sick. ha ha. I got a dizzy and tired and could barely keep my eyes open.

It’s like I’m creating an OCD ADHD brain. It needs something to constantly go to, something new, something different.

If anything, I’m almost finished with Trigger and I will post it later! ha ha. I have like 3 paragraphs left. I had to have SOMETHING to change to from the work I was doing. I just COULDN’T FOCUS.

It is sorta scary.

I don’t know what that means, but I’m pretty sure I’m insane and I’m getting worse at hiding it.

ha ha.

So here is what I wrote in Word while the net was down:

If I wasn’t bleeding like a stuck pig, I’d think I was pregnant right now. I can barely hold any food down, I’m dizzy and very fatigued. My body feels crazy and everything is a mess. Ugh… wht a day.

I wanna go home and cuddle with my puppy!

So I’m writing this in Word right now because my jobs internet is down. Annoying!

I am trying to not think about this pay cut that is coming.

HORRIBLE.

Enough thinking. Thinking hurts.

Writing in Word hurts.

I want my internet to work, but it’s just NOT. So whatever.

I just want to go home.

Lovely huh?

Blah!!!

So lunch in 45 minutes. I have a delicious chicken in basil cream sauce to eat.

I feel like having a salad too. But I have no salad here.

I’m sorta crazy.

ok, wait, i’ve gotta drop the "sorta"… I am TOTALLY crazy.

And broke as a joke.

but someone left me a good note, the money is gone, move along.

I just hope my landlord doesn’t cash my rent check today. I might be in trouble if he does. But whatever. I have enough food to last for at least 2 more weeks if I am creative enough with it, I have 10 bucks to put gas in my car and enough lunch fixings to make my kids lunches. Breakfast is my only issue, and they might end up having baggies of cereal and apple sauce for a few days, but hell, it’s food!!! heh.

Anyway… Now that my net is back, I need to go read favs before it goes down again.