I’m not writing how I feel

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hello Friends.

I just did a shipload of work. Like a lot. I was a working fool.

I am tired of it now. Even though there are a few other things I could do. I can do them later. Or tomorrow. Or whenever. ha ha!

but I’m even less inclined to write about anything that might have any remote connection to how I feel or what’s going on in my head. I’m gonna let it "marinate" for awhile before I say anything. My entries tend to be rash rawness that isn’t thought out. Then when I do have a moment to actually ponder things I come back and it’s all fine or fixed or at least organized and I look even crazier than I already am.

Here’s something funny though. I don’t know if he can tell or not, but I’ve been basically ignoring Hot Coworker. I just don’t care anymore. Whatever on him. He’s still nice and I say good morning and whatnot, but I’m not drooling over him and imagining what I could do under his desk if I just had the chance.

Yeah. no.

so anyway, I don’t know if he can tell, but he keeps coming up to me and trying to get my attention and i just sorta wave him off. Today I had some Diet Pepsi Max (mmm) and the caffeine had me giggling and chatting with people and he walked by with some water for the water cooler dispenser thingie and started coughing. He said "I’m allergic to carrying water" and I started to make fun of him.

Well, it went on until everyone dispersed and I saw him coming towards my cube out of the corner of my eye. I looked and he started to fake punch me in the arm.

He’s never touched me. So that was strange.

It was weird and I was like "WORKPLACE VIOLENCE!" and we laughed.

but it was weird.

I dunno. Whatever guy. *shrug*

It’s not even a thing. I just thought it was weird.

boys are weird. Every last one of you!!! Don’t tell me you’re not, cuz you are!

anyway, I’m gonna do a survey, you can read or not. I don’t care.

 

1. Your ex is on the side of the road on fire. What do you do?

Throw kindling on him and laugh.

2. Your best friend tells you she is pregnant. What is your reaction?

I’d tell her to sue the doctor who said he did the vasectomy. Then I’d plan a trip to Texas.

3. When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?

Five minutes ago.

4. Congratulations! You just had a son. What’s his name?

Another son?! DAMN IT. But it would have to be a J name I guess. Maybe Jeremiah.

5.Congratulations! You just had a daughter. What’s her name?

Yay! Ummm, I sort of like Aundreya still, but I also like Moriah or Angelina (shut it)

6. What are you craving right now?

Hugs. I really don’t want any food to be honest.

7. What was the last thing you cried about?

a poem that someone wrote. I didn’t really cry. but my eyes sorta "welled up". I don’t know why. Either that or the big boss being a big huff monster with me this morning

8. Your change is a penny. Do you keep it or tell them to keep the change?

I’m keeping it yo! 100 pennies is a dollar! damn it!

9. What color is your tissue box?

I have a green one and a brown one at home. Or is it blue. who cares.

10. Do you have a ceiling fan in your room, and if so, is there dust on that fan?

Nope

11. What is the last voicemail you received about?

"please call Wells Fargo or we’re going to come kill you and then take our car back, bitch"

12. Scariest thing you’ve experienced in the last year?

When I thought Jonathon had either gotten kidnapped or ran away. I think my blood turned to ice.

13.What do you order when you go to Taco Bell?

Mexican Pizza, 2 soft tacos and those cinna twists. mmmm

14.Have you ever had a garage sale?

No, and it’s too much work for me to really want to either

15. When was the last alcoholic beverage you had?

A cranberry Mikes Hard Lemonade.

16.Are you happy right now?

I’m not sad

17. Who came over last?

"he" did. He’s the only one. ha ha. My family can’t seem to acknowledge anywhere that I live.

18. Do you drink beer?

Yep, it’s not my favorite, but it tastes good when you’re eating or after you’re already hammered

19. Dark or light jeans?

I like dark ones, very denim

20. What was the last movie you watched at home?

Ummm… this new zombie movie i think.

21. What is in your pocket?

I don’t have pockets, they are sewn shut. That’s really stupid of them if you ask me. Why do they sew shut the pocket? just don’t put a damn pocket there in the first place!

22. Who introduced you to your significant other?

HAHAHAHAH. I introduced myself.

 

3. Where do you hurt?</strong>

My back, my ears where my headphones rest and my ankle

24. What is your favorite aisle at Wal-Mart?

all of them. oh all of them!!! (but maybe the video games and movies the most. har har)

25. When is your birthday?

April 17th

26. What are you going to do after this?

Pretend to work. Again.

27. What is your favorite desert?

Oh that’s tough! I like anything ice cream with chocolate, so maybe a chocolate sundae in a waffle bowl? mmm. yeah. oh god. yes.

28. Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?

Nope, I’m unique

29.Is someone in love with you?

I don’t think so, to be honest

30. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?

Sometimes on the phone people think I’m my little sister Alyssa

31. Does someone like you right now?

I’m pretty sure he likes me

32. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?

My step uncle might be … otherwise… not yet. ha ha ha? *sigh*

33. Do you like the color green?

It happens to be my favorite color, thanks

34. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Maybe… if they’re really bored or crazy

wow… so why was there a "google ad" in my source?

it was making my computer run slow and my curser wouldn’t type after this survey.

screwy! screwy i say!!!!

damn computers.

i’m out yo.