if only i could take my face off…

I’m trying really hard to leave notes, but OD is being quite the twatface today.

So for those who don’t know, Kim is my best friend. She used to live in Cali, up until about 2 years ago when she moved to Texas. It was a great move for her family, and even though it broke my heart into tiny pieces, I was happy she was going somewhere she felt was great for her kids and such.

But now, circumstances have seen fit to catapult her back to Cali and my little heart is just so happy.

I want her family to be happy and in a great place too… so that’s conflicting. But everything works out the way it’s supposed to and hell, she could find herself in a great place here that she isn’t expecting! Not to mention that it will be amazing to have a friend in my general vicinity again. And not just any friend, one of the most essential pieces ot my heart that I haven’t managed to lose.

I always lose them and after a while it just seems like the way things are supposed to go. but not with Kim, we have had our fights, but we always find our way back to each other and there is always love.

We met on OD like… YEARS ago. When my Jacob was a tiny baby! So at least 5 years ago.

Crazy right?

I love her soooo much.

anyway, I wish more of you were coming to live in Cali. That would rock.

And not just ANYWHERE in Cali, in Southern Cali!  Near LA! Preferably the Valley! hahahahah.

anyway, enough with that.

i must mention that my body is attacking itself.

it feels like allergies, but I’m almost certain my body just hates itself and is trying to implode with itchy watery eyes, a burning itching sneezing nose and a sore throat.

UGH.

I really wish I could find an allergy medication that didn’t lie.

I tried a "non drowsy" version of allergy med and it LIED.

I was barely able to make it through work!

I would like to remove my face now.

Just take it off.

Like it was attached with velcrow or perhaps a latch.

JESUS.

I keep having to stop the entry so i can claw at my itching burning skin and eyeballs.

lovely imagery.

and my HAIR. I’m gonna wash it tonight. It’s horrific right now.

I don’t know how I transitioned to my hair, but I’m sure it has something to do with the HORROR THAT IS ME.

Did I mention that I saw the guy roomie and his girltoy dry humping her car?

yeah, that was an eyeful. I guess she was leaving and they hadn’t quite finished.

or something.

they saw me see them.

I am not sure if they cared, but as Baboo tried to run out and see she was speeding out of the driveway.

She’s been staying overnight a lot.

hmmmm.

I wonder if hearing sex on all sides made the other house mate leave. Her room is like right in the middle of us. ha ha.

horrible.

wow, so i started to do some work (cuz I often write entries in the midst of working, which might account for the scattered loopy neurotic quality of them sometimes…) and my eyes just slipped shut. (I just read that as slipped out…hahaha, yep, right out of my head slooop!)

I could probably get away with 10 or 15 minutes of sleep because the office is half empty and nobody else would bblame me.

hey, at least my face stopped itching.

FOR NOW.

DUN DUN DUNNNNNN!!

(you like that suspense don’t you! Ninjas jumping from jungle trees!)

wow, that was written half sleep with my eyes falling shut.

oh discordia.

there is no tomorrow.

only zuul.

night night