I Was Weak, Now I Regret it.
So, I got frustrated and messaged him first. It was stupid on my part. I should have left him alone… you’ll see… get a load of this:
He is Darkgod^vl… I am Starchild…
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ICQ History Log For:
DarkGod^VL^
Started on Wed Dec 12 09:00:56 2001
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Starchild 12/11/20 2:58 PM …hi
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 2:58 PM hello
Starchild 12/11/20 2:58 PM whats going on
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 2:59 PM well…
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 2:59 PM my house burned down,my dad died and im on my
final warning at work,have no money lost
everything
Starchild 12/11/20 3:00 PM jesus…
Starchild 12/11/20 3:00 PM so… where are you now? when did this happen?
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:00 PM and the van is going back to the bank and my
car is about to explode
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:00 PM all in the last month
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:01 PM within three weeks
Starchild 12/11/20 3:01 PM how… where are you?
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:02 PM im in a rental house they are letting me stay
here for a month or so,then im gonna try and
find a room to rent until i can get on my
feet…if i can
Starchild 12/11/20 3:03 PM you can
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:03 PM i dunno i can barely wake up in the morning
Starchild 12/11/20 3:03 PM well, your gonna have to
Starchild 12/11/20 3:04 PM how do you have a computer?
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:05 PM the garage was untouched in the fire
Starchild 12/11/20 3:05 PM oh
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:05 PM so i have weights and a computer which im most
likely going to sell
Starchild 12/11/20 3:05 PM you do what you have to do
Starchild 12/11/20 3:06 PM I’m really sorry about your loss
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:06 PM well thanks
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:06 PM sorry for messaging you
Starchild 12/11/20 3:06 PM I don’t mean to sound cold… but well… you
don’t have to be sorry
Starchild 12/11/20 3:07 PM i mean… i don’t know what to say to you
Starchild 12/11/20 3:07 PM what do you want me to do?
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:07 PM nothing
Starchild 12/11/20 3:07 PM so… thats all then?
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:07 PM yeah i guess
Starchild 12/11/20 3:08 PM you wanna know what I think
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:08 PM ok
Starchild 12/11/20 3:09 PM i think you came to me for a reason, which is
fine, i mean, i can see that your not doing so
well. but i think your already shutting me
down, which i can also understand, thats teh
way things work. but your stronger than you
think, and you can get thru this if you try…
and there is so much more in this life.
inlcuding your son.
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:11 PM I am not strong enough to take care of myself
let alone a child
Starchild 12/11/20 3:12 PM yes you are strong enough to take care of
yourself… no, i don’t expect you to take
care of him… but taking care of him and
caring about him are two totally different
things
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:12 PM thats what im talking about
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:13 PM I have nothing positive to offer anyone
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:13 PM I am beyond fucked up
Starchild 12/11/20 3:13 PM thats what you want me to believe… i dont’
believe it
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:13 PM my mental and emotional state has done nothing
but deteriorate over the past couple of years
Starchild 12/11/20 3:14 PM you choose what you offer, so all of this is
your choice.
i don’t believe you can’t choose your own
emotions
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:14 PM and I guess this is what I deserve in life
Starchild 12/11/20 3:14 PM i dont’ agree
Starchild 12/11/20 3:14 PM will you do something for me, please
DarkGod^VL 12/11/20 3:14 PM what
And then he went offline…
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hun.. and please don’t get angry with me.. this might sound rude.. I mean, it’s horrible what he’s going through.. but he’s just using it all as excuses to be a bigger jackass.. all of it.. his self pitying crap about getting what he deserves.. bull$hit. We make our own paths in this life, and it’s not what happens to us that defines us, but how we deal with what happens, and how we move on.
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He seems to want you to help him.. he feeds off of your generosity of spirit, and your need to take care of someone.. he’s weak, and he probably would want nothing more than to have someone continually take care of him.. well, he’s also a big boy.. big enough to have created a child, and to have abandoned that child. I think its refelctive of his character that he would use horrible things that
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happened to him as further excuses NOT to be a responsible father. My advise is leave him be hun.. you can’t help him.. no body can. He has to take his journey on his own.. and hopefully, one day, he will grow up, and mature through all of this. It is his decision. But at this point in time, I think you should move on, and let him create his own path. You have created your path… and you
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men are pigs…
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are on the right track.. you’re learning YOUR own lessons.. don’t let someone that doesn’t know how to live pull you from your destination. *biiig hug* I think you are strong, and wonderful.. and one of the most caring, giving people I have ever known.. talking to him wasn’t bad.. it’s just reflective of your giving and kind nature.. but please, don’t let him hurt you again. *hugs*
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CAN I TAKE YOU AND STRANGLE YOU? lol GIRL ERASE HIM FROM YOUR INSTANT MESSENGER AND CHANGE YOUR NAME. Why are you torturing yoruself further by even giving him a hint of your concern!!! ~hugs~ Let the a$$hole be hun….
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No offense… He sounds like Dustin. He would always talk like that. Don’t stay around him. Don’t talk to him. It will bring you down. Trust me. I went through it. Much Love,Bekah
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What a punk.. That’s the biggest bunch of bullshit I’ve ever heard.. And I’ve heard a lot of bullshit. Man, it still amazes me at what these pricks will do and say to get out of taking on their own responsibility.
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what an ass.
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