I think I’m a chocolate chip muffin…

(Which will make me delicious and ever so amazing. I wish I was a chocolate chip muffin…)

Well, the good news is, my emotional insanity seems to be receding into a more stable frame of mind.

The bad news is… my week is really not getting better. I think it’s hellbent on being stupid and ridiculous for the entire span.

So this morning I woke up feeling very… muffiny.

I can’t describe it. I felt fluffy and sorta like I had a delicious bit of goodness at the top of my mind. Very much like a good muffin. It didnt’ last long, but it was an interesting way to start the day!

I didn’t get up earlier (though I should have) but it was ok because I was able to stumble around and get most of the things done that I needed to.

I put my pinto beans in the crock pot. I want to make chili with them. They started to bubble! (I had been soaking them for two days cuz I sorta forgot I was gonna cook them. I looked up online last night if it was bad to soak beans for so long, and it said they will start to bubble and ferment… and it was right! egads! It sorta freaked me out… but I guess they’re fine….) So I put those on.

I got my kids up, but my oldest son has gone through this horrible growth spurt, and while he’s gonna be 8 in July I thought for sure I’d get a few more weeks out of his size 7 jeans. No go. He barely fits into the 8’s I have. Thank god my dad bought him size 10 jeans for christmas, but that’s only two pair.

I suppose I’ll end up in a store this weekend looking for a few more things. he also has like… 4 shirts to his name. I need to find a thrift store…

Everything else fits Jacob… who will be set easy peasy. But my Jon is pretty much done so I have to get him some clothes.

I don’t even have money for clothes. Whatever. I’ll work it.

So  yeah…

We get out of the house sorta on time but as I get ready to walk out to the train station… I realize I left my purse at home.

UGH!!!

Thank god my work badge and train pass is in my duffel that I carry. But still. I have no drivers license and no money… not even access to money. I surely hope I don’t need it! My phone was also in the duffel… so I guess I’m ok for the day.

I contemplated going home to get it… or just going home and playing hookey and saying SCREW YOU ALLLLLL!!!!! today.

But I didn’t.

I have a feeling I’ll need my sick time and I don’t want to build up the sneaky bad karma right now. Jonathon has been losing his voice, so he might be on the verge of some sort of sickness. So I’ll just wait. blah.

so yeah, no purse today… which means I probably won’t go to the gym.

LAME SAUCE EXTREME-O!!!!

I am about to just say "screw it!" and go home and get my card and go to the gym like I know I should. it will put me out about 5 miles, but I guess it’s JUST five miles and extra time. About half an hour of extra time.

If can take the freeway from the boys school to the gym, it’ll probably only take me 10 minutes. Surface streets from my house take longer because it’s rush hour and it’s stupid as all get out. I hate the traffic. I can’t take the freeway from my house because it adds anotehr couple miles, and obviously I’m a miles Nazi… my cars gas mileage sucks right now…

But I really need to go to the gym. I paid for this shit. I gotta stop slacking! I am determined to go on Friday and probably Saturday morning (before the birthday party) now… unless my mom is coming by with the couch. I should write her and ask if she is… or call… blah.

So yeah, I gotta make up some gym time so I can get my money’s worth this month! That means at least 3 times this week and 3 times next week… and 3 more times the following. UGH….

so yeah… that’s where that stands.

Last night, the highlight of it all… was beating a boss on P4. hahaha. I.AM.SO.LAME.

heh heh.

Anyway, I watched the end of the Lakers game. They pounded Houston. It was almost funny. I bet the Lakers will lose horribly the next game cuz they are such big conceited lunatics they’ll start strutting around and then KABLAM IN YOUR FACE!!!!

I think my brain is broken.

I keep forgetting things I shouldn’t.

Not sure what to make of it.

Oh well.

I guess I should get to work and stuff.

i hate work and stuff….

Everyone is all rumbling about lay offs and mandatory days with no pay and all this malarky.

It really is upsetting, but I’m in denial so it doesn’t make me feel even more crazy.

I need NO MORE CRAZY.

kthanksbye.

(happy Wednesday peeps and poops)